Chapter 45
It's been a while.
In fact it's been a long, long time.
I had the best time at Connor's and I love his mum as if she was my own, and his brother is adorable.
But now I'm home...
Home, and alone to think. The problem is it's not even home. I'm not home with my family. A full family.
I still haven't heard anything from Tristan. I don't have a clue what's going on with him but hell it's pissing me off.
I sit in 'my' room and deny my problems to Lucy. She keeps asking if I'm okay and of course I say I'm fine but really I'm dying inside. I have a recording session later so I can get my first single up and running, but currently I want to just stay in my room and watch YouTube videos while eating a lot of chocolate. That sounds nice.
I sigh I watching Tyler and other youtubers, happy that I'm now his friend. I can't wait to meet him and fan girl together about stupid things, but currently I feel too down to do that.
I get up from the bed I am currently sat on walking towards the mirror. My skin is covered in spots and crappy teenager stuff. I lean over and grab a bottle of foundation and pour pretty much all of it on. I put on generous amounts of mascara on, then filling in my eyebrows. Once making myself a little more presentable I feel a heavy ache in my chest. It's not the usual ache of pain and grief, but it's a hard knock-out feeling. I grasp the side of the table and try to take in deep breaths. What the hell is going on? "Lucy!" I scream panicking like crazy. Soon after Lucy is by my side talking me through what's going on.
"It's a panic attack, just breath" she calmly retorted trying to ease my stress.
"What the hell just happened?" I breath still uneasy about the whole past few minutes.
"Chloe, don't hate me, but-"
"But what?" I snap unaware of how rude I sound. "Sorry" I mumble.
"It's okay, but I think your depressed" she whispered.
What?
"Wh- wh-at?" I ask unaware of what she just stated.
"It's okay, I just think you need a little help, to et you back on your way" she says making a tear escape and slip into reality. "So much has happens just lately. I think you should just take a break and get done advise of a doctor or councillor" she advised standing up.
"Yeah" I mumbled taking my phone.
"Where are you going?" She asked sounding like a mum.
Ha.
"I have to record the new single" I sigh pulling my hair into a pony.
"Is that wise...?" She hinted but I insisted.
"I have to go, the sooner this is done the sooner I can get the album done then tour-"
"Take it easy" was all she said before leaving me alone.
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"So you ready?" I hear through the big earphones that are practically the size of my head.
"Ready then I'll ever be" I say back listening to how wired my voice sounds through the mic.
"Okay your recording"
My heart thuds thinking this could be what millions of people listen too. I close my eyes and wait for my queue, humming along silently.
I finally kept my pride and hailed a cab
Those cuttin' words you said were the last stab
There'll be no tears this time, they've all dried up
No more sweet poison, I already drank that cup
This tunnel's dark, but there's a little light glowing
Just enough for me to run towards knowing
Nothing in this world will ever break my heart again
Nothing in this world will ever break my heart again
No pain this life will put me through will ever ever hurt like you
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Soooooooo, there are only four chapter left!! *everyone cries*
So the song she sings is at the start of the chapter if you read this on a tablet but if not it's on the side :)
Also the video is drastic but ignore that 😂 but can we just discuss how fantabulous Nashville is?! But yeah, it's actually Hayden singing it which makes the picture better :)
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Don't Let Go (A Connor Ball / Tristan Evans Fan-fiction)
FanfictionFollow Chloe as she realises what can happen when you learn to love and how heart break can kill. Contains Strong Language All stories are my own.
