Redemption

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

Tig opens the chapel door and says "Gemma, can we get a minute?" Tig asks and she looks at him confused but walks into the chapel. "What going on?" she asks. "Some things have been brought to our attention and we've had a vote. We know who killed Tara." Jax says and you can see the hate and sadness in his eyes. "Who?" she asks, feigning shock. "You." Jax says. "Jackson, you know I would never..." she starts and Jax stops her. "Don't. Every word out of your mouth has been a lie." he says. "Well, did you know you have a rat at the table?" she asks. "We know all about Roosevelt blackmailing Juice and we know what he was holding over his head. We know that he didn't give up any info and didn't sign anything. But you." Jax stops and takes a breath. "You killed my wife." he seethes. "So what. She was leaving you and taking our boys with her." Gemma justifies. "No. She was leaving with my boys. Not yours. And she was leaving with my blessing. I was supposed to do the time and she was getting immunity from the murder charge. All of it would have worked out had you not done what you always do and meddle in shit you don't know a fucking thing about." he says and she turns to leave but Chibs blocks the door. "You're not going anywhere love." Chibs says. She turns back to Jax and he says "You know the consequences." She looks shocked and says "You can't kill me. Those boys need me." she pleads. "They have me and my club as well as the old ladies of the club." Jax says. "So who's idea was this? That little tart that you been bedding? Venus' sister?" she asks trying to put the blame on someone else. "You better watch what you say about her. She's the reason I'm not putting a bullet in your fucking skull." Jax tells her. "Then what's going to happen?" she asks. "We're blacking out your crows and shit and then you're being ex-communicated. You will pack your shit and leave and I don't care where you go, just don't come back here and you won't contact anyone from here. You won't reach out to any other charter either. We will let them know you're not to associate with any of them and they will be told to shoot you on sight if you try." Jax tells her and she nods her understanding.

They call church and lead her to a table for Happy to black out her tattoos. Once he's done, Jax says "TO and Montez will follow you to make sure you pack what you can get leave." She nods and asks "Can I at least kiss the boys goodbye?" He shakes his head and says "No." She looks at me as she walks past and says "Take care of him." I nod my understanding and as she leaves, Jax heads to his dorm.

I follow him back and walk in behind him. He walks over to the bed and I lock the door behind me before talking over to the bed and he pulls me between his legs. I look down at him and he pulls me to straddle him like we did at the streams. "Holding me close, he nuzzles his nose against my neck and I run my fingers through the hair on the back of his head and I feel him start to shake from the sobs. "Please don't leave me." he whispers as he sobs. "I'm not going anywhere Jax. I got you." I whisper back. He pulls back a little to look at me and I cup his face. "Tell me what you need." I ask. He looks into my eyes and kisses me softly. I let him deepen the kiss and he turns me over to hover over me. We start to shed clothes and he looks at me to ask for permission and I nod. He enters me slowly and makes love to me nice and slow. The entire time, his forehead to mine. All you hear are soft grunts from him and soft moans from me until we both find our release together. Still hovering over me, he pulls out and when I open my eyes, there are tears in his. He lays his head down on my chest like he did that first night and I run my fingers through his hair. "Please don't leave me." he says again. "I'm right here Jax. I'm here as long as you want me here." I tell him. He looks up at me and kisses me softly and we just look at each other. I caress his face and he says "You saved me." I look at him confused and say "No baby, you saved me." He moves to lay next to me and I lay facing him and he says "When I met you, I was so fucking lost. I felt like I was drowning and couldn't get my head above water but that night, when we talked, since then my mind has never been more clear. It's like you know exactly how to calm my demons." he tells me. "You're the first man I've ever been with that wasn't forced or pimped." I tell him. He cups my face and ask "Where do we go from here?" I pull away a little and say "You're still healing from losing your wife and now your mom and I'm still healing from the shit my mom put me through." He pulls me close and says "We just take things a day at a time, okay?" he asks. "Okay." I say. I look up at him and kiss him softly before we get up and get dressed to head back into the main room.

A little later, Jax is sitting at the bar with Chibs and Tig while I am on one of the couches with Lyla and Venus when his phone rings. We all are silent and listening. I have a bad feeling so I walk over to him and put my hand on his shoulder to let him know I'm there. "What? Are you sure?" he asks. "We're on our way." he says before ending the call. He looks at me and I see the tears in his eyes. I cup his face and he whispers "She killed herself." He goes to stand and I stop him and cup his face. "Jax, you don't need to see that." I tell him. "She's right. Stay here, we'll handle it." Tig tells him and he nods. Sitting down, he pulls me between his legs and holds me close. "I got you baby. I'm not going anywhere." I whisper to him so that only he hears. I feel him nod his head that he heard me and holds me closer. Looking up at me, he kisses me softly and I say again "I'm right here." and put my forehead to his as we drift off into our own little world, not seeing all of our family watching us.