Redemption

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

A little later, Jax's phone rings. "Yeah...Okay...I'm on my way." he says before hanging up the phone. We all look at him and he tells me "They have her at the cabin. We're burying her there." I nod and he asks "Will you go with me?" I nod and we head out to his bike.

Pulling up at the cabin, before we go in, I stop him. He looks at me concerned and I look at everyone else and ask "Give us a minute?" They nod and head inside. I pull him closer to me and softly say "Are you okay?" He nods and starts to walk and I stop him again. Without asking again, he sighs and says "I don't know how I feel but right now I need to bury my mom." I caress his face and say "Forget the why for right now. Right now, you need to mourn your mother." He nods and kisses me softly. "Stay close please." he whispers. "Of course." I whisper back.

Lacing his fingers with mine, he leads me inside the cabin. As soon as we walk in, he lets go of my hand and his brothers start to hug him and they all follow him to the back of the cabin where she is laid on the picnic table. They all stay back as he walks forward and sees the gunshot wound on the side of her head. I see his shoulders start to shake as he sobs and I walk over and put my hand on his back and start to rub his back gently, letting him know I'm there. One arm wraps around my waist as he stands up and he pulls me close to him. "She's gone." he whispers. I cup his face and say "She went out on her own terms Jax. This was on her. Not you." He nods his head and pulls me closer and before he can say it, I whisper "I'm right here baby. I got you." He cups my face this time and kisses me softly.

After they bury her, Chibs walks up and says "She had this laying on her bed." Jax looks at it and everyone starts walking outside seeing him holding the envelope with his name on it in Gemma's handwriting. I go to leave and he grabs my hand. "Stay." he says softly. I nod and he pulls me to sit on the couch beside him. He takes the letter out of the envelope and starts to read with me reading over his shoulder.

Jackson,

You know that I love you and our boys more than anything and only want to protect you. I thought I knew what was best for you by getting rid of Tara but I know that you love her and I hurt you and that wasn't my intention. When Tara came back, I decided then that I would do what was needed to make sure you two didn't last but she was a great mother to Abel and Thomas. But she didn't have what it takes to be in this life. I know you don't want to hear this and you most likely won't listen to me but I have to say this. I know you were struggling after Tara died and that's my fault but you seem to have a clearer head now that Ryan has been here. If you never listen to anything I've told you in your life, listen to me now. She's a good woman. The hell she's been through and anytime I spoke to her, all she talked about was helping you. Take care of her. Let her be there for you. Keep her close and keep her safe. I love you.

He closes the letter and looks at me. I run my fingers through the hair on the back of his head and he leans towards me and kisses me softly. Putting his forehead to mine, he asks "What do I do?" Moving into his lap, my forehead still against his, I say "You take some time and get your head right. Take a few days and let your mind reset. Spend some time with your boys." I tell him and he nods.

Getting on his bike, we head to the clubhouse with everyone else. Once we pull up, I get off his bike and he pulls me close. Kissing me softly he says "Call me if you need me." I nod and say "Just spend time with your sons. I'll be fine." I tell him. Putting his forehead to mine he says "You're mine." I shake my head and say "Jax, just be with your sons and we'll talk in a few days. Okay baby?" I ask and he nods. I kiss him one more time before he heads home to his sons.

I walk into the clubhouse and Chibs asks "Is he okay?" I say "I don't know. I told him to take a couple of days and spend with his sons and let his mind reset." I tell him. "You okay Lass?" he asks. I shake my head no and head to my dorm...alone.