Redemption

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

A little later, Brooke goes to take the kids home and I squat down the Abel and he hugs me. "Later buddy." I say and hold out my pinky. He links his with mine and says "Later buddy." before hugging me and getting in the car for Brooke to buckle him in. I look at Thomas, in Jax's arms and kiss his cheek. "See you little man." He reaches for me and snuggles me. I move to put him in his carseat and when I close the door, Brooke gets in the car and pulls out. Jax pulls me close and I watch them pull out of the lot. Turning to him, I snuggle into his chest and he says "They like you." I just nod. Tilting my chin up he asks "What is it?" I pull away a little and say "They are such cool little kids. They lost their mom this young. Jax..." I say as I start to ramble but he kisses me softly and whispers "It's okay. You're my Old Lady. You're moving in with me and the boys and we'll take it a day at a time." he tells me. "Okay." I whisper. He kisses me one more time before we head back into the clubhouse.

Sitting at the bar with Venus she asks "How are you doing Ry?" I look at her and smile softly and say "They are such cool kids." before looking back down at my drink. "What is it?" she asks. "I'm his Old Lady." I tell her. "You are." she says. I look at her and say "I belong to someone and V, he's so good to me. And as fucked up and broken as I am, he loves me. I know I'm beyond fixable. Nothing will change that but he loves me." I tell her as a tear falls. "He does." she says as she wipes my tears. Jax sees me crying and comes over, worried. "Babe?" he asks and before he can ask I crash my lips with his and he kisses me back just as passionately as he pulls me closer to him. When we separate, I whisper "I love you Jackson. I love you so much." I tell him. "I love you babe." he says before kissing me again softly. I snuggle into him and close my eyes as he holds me close, us not noticing everyone smiling around us.

I pull away and wipe the tears before saying "Sorry." He cups my face and says "Never apologize babe. I love you so fucking much. Don't ever apologize for showing me you love me." he says and I nod before he pulls me back into his arms. Tig walks up and says "Can we talk?" I look at Jax and he nods. We walk to the dorm and up the ladder, where we always go to talk. Since I've been here, Tig has been like a big brother to me and I am so glad my sister found him. We take our seats on the roof and he says "I heard what you told Venus. Doll, you ain't beyond fixable." he tells me. "Yeah Tig. I am." I tell him. "No you ain't. You telling Jax you love him? Agreeing to be his Old Lady? You meeting his boys? You're letting him in and whether you believe it or not, you're healing. You told me when you got here that you'd only ever been a way for a man to get off but you've let all of us in. You let him in. We all see it. You smile. When he looks at you, you fucking glow. The way you let him hold you and be there for you? You're healing." he tells me. I look at him and he says "You're fixable doll and we see you getting better every single day. You are being fixed and so is he. Since you've been here, his head has been more clear. He's been the President his Old Man would have been proud of. The President his Old Man wanted him to be. Tara couldn't do that for him but you do. You help him think things through instead of going on emotions like he did before. You two make each other better." he tells me. "Yeah but..." I start. "But nothing." he tells me. "Tig, I am still waiting on the other shoe to drop. I can't give him kids and still think I'm not good enough for him." I tell him. "He don't care about that. He has his boys. But Doll, you are more than good enough. Your sister loves you. We love you. He loves you. Hell, I think he loves you more than he ever did Tara but baby girl, you're one of us. You're his Old Lady so what you need to do now is hold that pretty little head up because as soon as you get his crow tonight, you become Queen B and you better start acting like it." he tells me. I look at him shocked and he says "You can handle it. I know you can and Venus and Lyla will be here to help you when you need it. You ain't alone here." he tells me. I hug him and say "Thanks Tig. I'm so glad my sister found you. You're the best big brother ever." I tell him and we both laugh. "Good. Now, get your ass down there and show you're Old Man that you're okay." he tells me. I nod and head down the ladder.

I walk up to Jax at the bar and he's talking to Venus. I pulls him to me and kiss him deeply and when we come up for air, he looks into my eyes and I whisper "Thank you." He looks at me confused and I say "For fixing me." He crashes his lips with mine before picking me up and carrying me to the dorm. When the door closes, he locks it and tosses me on the bed. Hovering over me he looks into my eyes and says "Now you can thank me properly." I smile before kissing him deeply and we start to shed clothes before he makes love to me nice and slow, both of us finding our release and just being close while we still can.