Redemption

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

After another round of sex, he lays on his back and I lay across his chest. Neither of us are saying anything, just enjoying being together. Eventually he asks "What did he do to you?" I don't look at him but say "You don't want to know." I tell him. Moving to face me, he says "Tell me...please." I snuggle into his chest where I don't have to see his face and I say "When he was with me, he would tie me to the bed, face down and use his knife to make cuts in my back so that he could watch me bleed while he raped me. There were times he would come in with a small travel bag and it had different things he would use on me. He used the handle of a hammer on me once. Another time, he put zip ties and hooked my hands and feet together with me on my stomach and him and a buddy took turns on me. Another time he put a plastic bag over my face with my hands tied while he fucked me. Those are just the things I can remember." I tell him. He pulls me closer and tilts my chin up and says "I'll never hurt you." I kiss him softly and say "I know baby." before snuggling back into him.

The next morning, we wake up and he says "I want to bring my boys here to meet you." I look at him and ask "Are you sure? I mean...we're still working through shit and they just lost their mom. Are you sure?" I ask. "Yeah baby. You're my Old Lady. Happy is going to do your crow tattoo tonight and make it official. I want my boys to see who I'm raising them with. You're okay with all of this right?" he asks. I see so much love and hope in his eyes. It's so different from when I first got here. Taking a deep breath, I say "Yeah baby. I'm okay with that." I tell him before he crashes his lips with mine.

A little later, a car pulls up and Jax walks over and opens one of the doors while a woman opens the other. A little boy gets out and he picks up a smaller boy. Taking the little boy's hand, he walks them over to me. "Abel, this is Ryan. Ryan, this is Abel and Thomas." Jax says. "Hi Abel." I say as I kneel down and hold my hand out to shake. He looks at Jax and Jax nods that it's okay. He holds out his hand and says "Hi Ryan. Are you my daddy's girlfriend?" I look up at Jax and he pats Abel's head and asks "Is that okay?" Abel looks at me and then Jax and nods his head yes. Looking at me he says "Mommy went away and so did Grandma. Are you going to go away too?" I take his hand and say "I'll make you a deal. I won't leave you if you don't leave me. We'll have each other's backs. Deal?" I ask and hold out my pinky finger. He links his pinky with mine and says "Deal." Looking up at Jax he says "I like her Daddy." and Jax smiles as I stand up. I take Thomas' hand and say "Hey little man." He smiles at me and then hides his face in Jax's neck. Jax kisses me softly and says "They like you." I nod and shy away a little. "Abel, you wanna hit the playground?" the babysitter asks. "Brooke, this is Ryan, my Old Lady." he says. "Hey. I'm Rat's Old Lady." she tells me. "Nice to meet you." I say and Jax hands Thomas over to Brooke. We stand there for a few minutes before heading over to one of the picnic tables. "Thank you for this." Jax says. I look at him and say "I think I needed it too." I tell him.

We are standing there just watching the kids when they come running over and Thomas comes right to me and wraps his arms around my leg before reaching up for me. I pick him up and he snuggles into me and I kiss the top of his head. "Hey little man." I say softly. Abel moves from Jax to stand by me and he wraps his arms hugs me and Jax is standing there smiling.