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December 23, 2021
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1:52 AM

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I couldn't sleep and the only contact in my phone was you, Kuya Diego and Av.

Already talked to the both of them and... I don't know. I'm sure that this isn't your number anymore and that you've already changed your sim.

I don't know it feels weird that I never deleted your number on my phone after all this time.

It's been years, Juan...

And I'm back in PH... god, I sound weird.

I don't know how to start telling things.

I didn't want to go home because I was well aware that no matter where I go, we would see each other.

It's such a small world that we live in.

I'll eventually see you.

I'm sure we'll bump into each other one day.

Umuwi lang talaga ako para sa kasal ni Kuya Diego.

I couldn't sleep...

Naninibago ako... kahit kwarto ko naman 'to.

I just... miss you.

Scratch that.

I think... I don't even have the right to miss you.

I'm not updated about your life anymore for the past years, but I saw you in one of the billboards along the way at Manila, you were promoting something?

You looked good actually.

Well, always naman.

Kaya nga crush kita... noon 😂

You looked the same.

Your hair's the same 😂

Funny how two years never changed you... well, I guess you're still the same. I just feel it.

And funny how two years ago changed my life for good.

Para akong ewan... even after years, I'm still such a coward when it comes to you.

Like, who the hell texts her ex in his old number? Telling him all the things she could've said years ago, because she knew it wasn't his number anymore.

Maybe, my friend was right.

I am selfish. I am heartless.

That's why I lost everything.

That's why I decided to let you go.

That's why I lost you.

Kaya pilit kitang binitawan kahit mahigpit ang kapit mo.

Tama naman si Lauren, tanga ako para pakawalan ka.

Para pakawalan ang isang katulad mo.

Duwag ako. Masama akong tao dahil sa ginawa ko.

Ni hindi na ako naawa sa 'yo.

I didn't even bother explaining myself to you.

I didn't bother explaining why I broke up with you...

Pero alam mo kung sino ang mas duwag?

Ikaw.

You're more coward than me, Juan.

Kasi tumigil kang ipaglaban ako.

Kasi sinukuan mo ako.

At higit sa lahat, kasi napagod ka ng mahalin ako.

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