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Amnesia

Amnesia(because I felt like a sad chapter, song lyrics will be in italics. Flash backs will be in bold. I know really annoying but...)

Dean-I thought about our last kiss how it felt the way you tasted. He leaned back on his bed as his mind replayed the moments one of them was your last kiss. Your eyes shined bright as you smiled, your laugh when hearing Dean's corny jokes. You hugged the living out of Dean. You let go but still he held you. You both looked into each others eyes and slowly leaned in. Your last kiss tasted like apple pie, Dean and you shared a pie that last happy night. Dean felt his lips and sighed wishing you were next to him again.

Sam- And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them. You and Sam wanted to be together forever, wanting to get married, start a family and grow old hopefully. You dreamed for a new job and a somewhat normal life. You dreamed for little children running around the house screaming, shouting, calling for their parents. You always wanted to be a mother... What happened? Fate happen. Somewhere in your life you made a choice, a choice that broke Sam. Sam had those same dreams but you just shattered them away.

Cas- If what we had was real how can you be fine? Cas watched you, he was your angel. The angel you fell in love with now you got him out of your life and now with some other guy. You weren't faking anything he saw that night, you still had a laugh that wasn't fake. You looked happy. Is that what you wanted? A normal life? Did Castiel not give enough, to protected to care... Cas was broken, sadden but angry how could you just be fine after the moments with Cas, those beautiful memory now soon to be washed away...

Gabriel- Sometimes I start to wonder was it just all a lie? Did you actually love that crazy sweet obsessive angel? No, it couldn't all be a lie! Those sparks flew when you kissed. Those moments when you just had everything. When he was holding you close while watching the TV or when he got defensive for you. Did you not like those? You did many things as well. You cared for him. Made sure he wasn't going to get killed. Now where are those moments? Somewhere those moments never existed in your head.

Balthazar- It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long. He took a long sighed when Castiel mention you. His brothers became worried for him. What happen to the happy, sarcastic, over confidence angel? That angel became sad, more alcoholic, depressed angel. The other angel flew away when you went away. It's been three months or more. He didn't want to know how long he was without you. His heart breaks into million pieces, he tears up and exhaled deeply when hearing upon your name.

Lucifer- It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts you moved on... He heard news from the Winchesters that you were with a new boy and you were happy. You forgot who Lucifer was. You had a new normal life. You forgot when Lucifer changed for you. When he looked into your eyes, his eyes looked trustworthy as he told you he was going to change only for you. What happened to those promises? When you said you'll always be there? What happened to those promises? You didn't want him anymore.

Michael- And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine. He would often go to the Winchesters or Castiel and ask about you. He would always get the same answer, sometimes they, your friends, answer the question before he even asked. How could you just only be fine? Why aren't you broken like he was, he longed for you again to be with him. It was always the same question and the same answer. Nothing will change, just the fact you weren't with Michael anymore and you didn't care anymore. That was different.

Crowley-When he say those words that hurts you,do you read the ones I wrote you? Crowley often thought. Did the new boyfriend treat you right? Do you miss Crowley and read those little notes. Those cute short notes. Like when he said "The day seems perfect when you're around." Or when he wrote:"Your face is the definition of perfection." Does the new boyfriend write little stuff like that? The only thing that Crowley writes are notes of how much he loves and know that they will never be sent to you.