Napatanga ako sa harap ni Thirdy matapos niyang sabihin yon.
What did I do to deserve this man?
Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili ko. I hugged him so tight and I buried my face on his neck.
"I love you so much Thirdy." I said with all my heart.
He engulfed me in a comfortable hug. "I love you Beatriz."
We stayed like that for a long time. Tahimik lang kaming magkayakap sa couch. The silence is comforting pero ginugulo pa din ako ng isip ko.
I know things won't be the same anymore, pero iniisip ko kung may tiwala pa ba siya sakin. Kasi kahit gaano mo naman kamahal yung tao, kapag tiwala yung nasira, mahirap nang buuin ulit.
Kung wala na siyang tiwala sakin, it will be hard pero I will work hard to earn it again. I just hope that he'd let me.
Mahirap kasing magstay sa isang relasyon na walang tiwala.
I was lying comfortably on his chest nung may maalala ako. Humiwalay ako sa kanya so I could see his face.
"Uhm, about last night.." I bit my lower lip. Hindi pa din ako sigurado if I should tell him or not. Pero if I want to gain his trust back, I need to be really honest with him.
"Jho kinda told me na yung nakita niya daw na naghatid sakin from the shore is ikaw." I looked at him to see his reaction.
Nakita ko ang pagkagulat sa mukha niya. He tried to hide it by laughing pero alam kong there's something he's not telling me.
"You know I'm with Kuya right?" he asked me while smiling.
"Y-yeah, pero.." I was lost of words. I know he's not lying. May mga kumakalat na pictures din na nandoon nga sila ni Kuya Kief. Besides, kung pupunta naman siya, i'm sure he'd tell me.
"Pero?" he asked.
Tumingin ulit ako sa kanya before I shook my head. "Nothing. Baka lasing nga lang si Jho."
He smiled bago niya ginulo yung buhok ko.
"Baka crush ako ni Jho kaya ako yung nakita niya." he joked. Hinampas ko naman siya sa braso. I don't know why pero it felt weird hearing na nagkakacrush yung best friend ko sa jowa ko.
"Don't say that. Baka ma-jinx." nakasimangot kong sabi sa kanya.
Napatawa naman siya. "Eh ano naman kung ma-jinx? Akala ko ba you love sharing especially kapag kaibigan mo?"
Mas lalong sumama yung mukha ko. Alam kong magkasalubong na din ngayon ang kilay ko.
"Not you!" nagulat si Thirdy sa ginawa kong pagsigaw, so am I. "Not..you.." nahihiyang bulong ko as I looked away.
Sino ba naman kasing matutuwa na may kahati siya sa boyfriend niya? Wala naman siguro diba?
"Love, wag ganyan. Kinikilig ako eh." sabi niya kaya napatingin ako sa kanya.
Nakatakip yung dalawang kamay niya sa mukha niya nung humarap ako sa kanya. Napatawa naman agad ako.
"That is the gayest thing you've ever done." sabi ko na ikinatawa naman agad niya.
