"Tara kaya puntahan si Thirdy sa kanila?" Jho's eyes sparkled na parang napaka-brilliant nung idea niya.
"Ano namang gagawin natin dun?"
"Duh. Syempre para malaman yung totoo." she grabbed the bag of chips on my hand at siya naman yung kumain nun.
"How? What would we say pag tinanong tayo kung bakit tayo nandun?"
"Edi sabihin mo miss mo na si Thirdy." she shrugged as if it's the simplest thing to do.
Hinampas ko siya ng unan. "Tanga ka ba. Edi nagmukha naman akong obsess kay Thirdy non."
"Bakit, hindi ba?" taas kilay na tanong niya sakin.
"Slight lang." I whispered as I avoided her gaze.
"Ano yon Beatriz?" mapang asar na tanong niya pa. Kahit kelan talaga tong babaeng to!
"Wala!"
Natahimik ulit kaming dalawa. Alam kong nag iisip din siya ngayon. I don't even know why we're working ourselves out sa bagay na hindi naman namin sigurado. Kung saan may 10% na chance lang ata na may kabuluhan tong ginagawa namin.
"Tara na nga kasi Bei. Unexpected visit ganon." Tumingin ako sa kanya at nakinig lang.
"Kasi malay mo, the reason why Thirdy hasn't invited you yet in his place is because nandon nila tinatago yung kakambal niya. Oh diba. It made sense, right?" may pa hand gestures pa niyang pagpapaliwanag.
"Well, I think that's...stupid."
Sumimangot naman agad siya.
"Ano ba yan Jho! Can't you come up with something decent na hindi tayo magmumukhang tanga?"
"Wow! Coming from you na wala pang naiisip na idea."
"I'm thinking okay! Daldal ka kasi ng daldal diyan."
Habang nagtatalo kami ni Jho ay bigla nalang nagring ang phone ko. Agad kong hinanap ito dahil nalunod na ata sa mga kalat namin ni Jho sa sahig.
When I finally found it, my heart almost jumped out of my chest when I saw the caller.
Love calling..
"Ay wow, nanalo ka sa lotto te?" puna naman ni Jho. I almost asked what does she mean when I saw my reflection on the screen of my phone. Nakangiti na pala ako ng sobrang lapad.
"Shut up." sabi ko sa kanya bago ako tumayo at pumuntang kusina. Alam ko kasing guguluhin ako ni tanga.
"Hi love."
[I miss you.]
Halos magkasabay naming sabi kaya parehas kaming napatawa.
"Napatawag ka?" kalmadong tanong ko kahit ang totoo ay nagwawala na yung puso ko sa kilig.
[Miss ko lang yung girlfriend ko.] sabi niya na ikinadoble naman ng kilig ko.
Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi ko habang pigil pigil ang sarili ko sa pag ngiti.
"May kasalanan ka no?" biro ko na ikinatawa naman niya.
Gaadd. I miss those laughs. Unti unti tuloy napaltan ng pagkamiss yung kilig ko.
[Good boy ako. Kasama ko si Mama maghapon.]
I noticed something strange in his voice. I don't know if it's just me or he just sound sick.
"You're okay, right?" nag aalalang tanong ko.
[Nakausap na kita eh, wala nang rason para hindi ako maging okay.]
I smiled on what he said. Just when did this turtle become so vocal about his feelings?
"Lalo pa kung nakita mo ang maganda mong girlfriend. Baka hindi ka na makatulog." I joked and he laughed.
[Love nilalamig ako. Ikaw ba?]
"Gago." we both laughed.
Natahimik kaming dalawa. I heard him sigh and I can't help my heart from aching.
[I miss you so much love.]
I don't know what's gotten into me but my eyes got teary. Maybe it's because of the way he said those words, full of sincerity and sadness. Or maybe..maybe it's because I feel the same way.
I wiped the tears on my face before Jho could see me. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying. Oh God Beatriz. What's wrong with you? You don't usually cry when you miss someone. Why are you suddenly like this?
"I..I miss you more Ferdinand." I finally blurted out as I sniff.
It was already too late before I even realized what I just did.
[Love umiiyak ka ba?]
"Of course not." pagtanggi ko agad.
[Are you sick?]
"No no. Uh, maalikabok kasi dito sa condo ni Jho kaya sinisipon ako."
"I heard that!" Dinig kong reklamo ni Jho mula sa salas. Di ko nalang siya pinansin.
[I see. Well love, I have to go. Magdadrive na ko eh.]
I felt the disappointment creeping in my chest. There's a part of me that wants to stop him. To tell him to talk to me more. To give me more attention, more time, because I miss him so much.
"Okay. Drive safely love."
But love isn't selfish as what they say. No matter how much you want to have all his time, you can't. The world, I mean, basically, his world doesn't revolve around you. So minsan, you just gotta sit on one corner of the room and wait until he finally has time for you. Until it's finally your turn.
No matter how tiring it gets.
[Text me when you get home. I love you.]
*call ended*
I stared at the screen of my phone. I wanted to cry but I can't find the exact reason why I should. So I just stood there.
"I love you too."
