Vent book

If Only I Knew..

If only I knew what happened to the necklace I gave you.
That was my only way of knowing if you still loved me.
Now you have a new one and so I hid mine under my shirt so it would give an illusion that I'm not wearing it.
But the truth is, I can't break out of such a strong habit of wearing it all the time.
Maybe the next time I take it off I'll leave it off because all it ever gives me is sadness now.
I'm sorry I couldn't please you.
I'm sorry I'm making another post about you.
I took the hearts away from your name and I'll stop texting you:)!
It's not like you reply..
I hope you know I love you.
Even if you don't love me..
But if you don't please tell me so I can go ahead and move on.
Something might catch my interest when I'm neglected.
When you neglect me there are Consequences.
If this stays you'll find out what they are.

I'm not even sad about it anymore.
My counselor says I already went through a 'breakup stage and that, even if it isn't, it still counts as a first breakup'.
I stopped cutting about you.
'Don't bother swimming oceans for people that won't jump a puddle for you.'

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Text me back...

Man the people who still read this must either really care about me or be just as depressed as me.
If you're depressed.. my pm's are open!
If you care about me.. Hi! My pm's are open and I care about you too!!

I really hope the person I'm talking about doesn't read this, they'll know it's about them immediately..
I just don't want to feel neglected anymore..
I want to get out of this 'breakup stage'.