Reject (mxm)

Chapter Two: Ruari

I had the element of surprise on my side. No one knew I could shift. I took off on a run and knocked out the warrior wolves poised to block my way. I kept going until I reached the forest on the west side of the cemetery. It's dense and spread to directions that could lead to anywhere.

If I head northwest I'd be in the direction of the next town. I can shift back, grab the public transport and transfer out of the state to an international airport. But if I want to reach state boundaries and be out of the country by the end of the day I have to continue to run in my wolf form and take my chances in the forest.

Once I felt I was on the clear, I allowed my wolf to take over.

I'm sorry Rothe. I said talking to my wolf, taking the back seat on my own body.

It's uncanny but I could be in full control of my senses even in my wolf form. If I wanted to I could just keep on running but Rothe would get us there faster and his senses were keener than mine when we're on this form.

It's not your fault, my wolf scolded. We just have to get out here right? Once we board an airplane we'd be safe.

I nodded, allowing nothingness to slowly consume me.

I felt drained, mentally exhausted. Seeing members of my old pack brought back haunting memories I've been trying hard to forget. I remembered the beatings. The countless nights I would cry because of the pain. The days I was hungry and was denied food for an offense I didn't know I committed. How scared I was because I always felt alone.

When I was younger I never felt my wolf stir inside me. Happy, angry or sad I felt nothing. I never felt any scratching or clawing like the other kids did.

But I liked to pretend he was just sleeping. I always hoped that when he wakes up he'd be my partner and he'd be fiercely protective of me. We'd be the best of friends and we'd rely on each other. I dreamed of finding our mate together and live happily ever after. But when I didn't phase when I was supposed to, I knew there was no happy ending waiting for me. I was devastated. I thought even my wolf deserted me. I felt like it couldn't get any worse than that.

Then Ciaran rejected me and I decided to run away. I felt the stirrings of something inside me but I blamed it all on the injuries I sustained from the thrashing and the possibility that I might be losing my mind from my mate's rejection. But when stirring started to scream at me and kept yelling why I never woke it up when I needed help I finally realized I wasn't alone anymore.

I phased for the first time that night. I was so drained I lost consciousness. When I came to, I was already in Jasper Gale's front door. My wolf tracked him down and took us to his place while I was passed out and resting.

It turns out Rothe have indeed been sleeping inside of me. I had unconsciously pushed him to the side, on a deeper part of my being, shielding him from everything that was threatening to harm us. I was taking the brunt of everything without him knowing or feeling any of it. He would have been left dormant if I hadn't found out about Ciaran. Because of the mating bond Ciaran's wolf connected with Rothe, successful waking him from the state of unconsciousness I forced him into.

Wake me when you need me to take over. I whispered tiredly knowing Rothe would wake me after I'm fully rested and not before. If there were problems he'd deal with it on his own and won't disturb me unless it's absolutely necessary for me to intervene.

I closed my eyes and dove right into unconsciousness.

I trust my wolf. Rothe would do anything to protect me. He'd get us to where we need to go without fail.

The next time I opened my eyes we were on the airport. I could feel Rothe's uneasiness from being around too many people at once. Large crowds make him nervous because he feels like he wouldn't be able to properly protect me.