Deadly Past (A serial killer novel) - FINISHED

Chapter 10

The killer is on his way to the warehouse. He is torn. He doesn't want to kill her anymore, but the urge to kill won't allow him to stop the killings. He feels sorry for her for what she went through, but he still hates women. He has never felt like this before. It is the first time that he found someone who understands how he feels, and now he has to kill her. He is trying to take control of his emotions, but it seems impossible. He decided to keep her alive for a while until he makes up his mind and is bringing her food. He stops in front of the gate that leads to the warehouse he keeps Sara in. The guard smiles at him as he opens the gate. He knows him very well. This has been the place he brought the girls since the third victim. He drives through the gate and follows the road until he gets to the area where his warehouse is located. It is at the end of the row and the warehouse next to it is empty. It is also relatively sound proof, so no-one can hear the screams from the outside of the warehouse. He parks in front of the warehouse and walks towards the door. When he opens it he sees that Sara is awake. "Morning," he says as he enters the warehouse and closes the door. "She doesn't respond. She doesn't want to talk to him. "I brought you some food to build up your strength a bit," he says as he walks towards her. "I am not hungry," she says. He stops in front of her. "You have to eat. I don't want you to starve," he says and takes a sandwich out of the brown bag in his hand. "I am going to die anyway. I might as well choose how I want to die. If I want to starve to death, let me starve to death," Sara says with new confidence. She knows that begging isn't working. Maybe showing him that she isn't scared might help. "I will kill you before you starve to death. Humans can live at least 10 days without food and water, and I will kill you in the next few days, so you might as well eat the food. That way your last few days will be more pleasant," he says and places the sandwich between her hands. Sara throws it to the ground. "Be that way then," he says and gets a crate from the corner of the room to sit on. He places it in front of Sara and sits down. "Let's talk," he says. "I don't want to talk. I don't want to talk to someone as evil as you," she says. Caleb removes the hood of his hoodie and looks her in the eyes. He has short red har which makes his green eyes even more colorful. Sara looks at the full view of his face. He looks vulnerable as he shows himself to her. It is almost as if he is trying to be sincere with her. "I am so sorry about what happened to you when you were little, and I am sorry that I am doing this to you. If I knew your story, I would've never taken you, but it is too late now. You know too much and I have to kill you," he explains. Sara can see a softness in his eyes that she hasn't seen before. "I won't tall anyone who you are. I don't even know your name," she says. He shakes his head. "You do know my name now. It is Caleb Smith," he says. "I can't take the risk of letting you go. I am trying to think of ways to help you, but there aren't any that suits me," he adds. Sara can't believe that he gave her his name. She is trying to figure out whether it is because he is trying to show himself to her or whether he wants to make sure that she knows too much as an excuse to kill her. Sara can see the two parts of him. There is a part of him that is gentle, and then there is the part that wants revenge. He can't control his urge for revenge and his softer side can't save her. She knows that this is a losing battle. She can feel the tears building up again, but she keeps them locked up. She refuses to show him her weak side anymore. "I hate you!" she screams at him. "I know, but try to understand why I do this," he says. "Understand! I know what you've been through. I've been through it too, but I never wanted to kill all the men on earth just because one man hurt me. It is selfish and cruel!" she responds. The words cut Caleb like a knife. "It wasn't just Mia. It was my mom as well. She refused to believe me or help me when I told her what happened years later. I believe your parents didn't call you a liar when you told them what happened," he says. "My mom doesn't know. You are the first person that I told about it. Now the only person who knows my secret will be the one that brutally murders me," Sara says, with a sound of sadness in her voice. "You are different than I was. You moved on from it, but I couldn't. I can never forget what happened and forgive her for what she did to me. I can't move on and never will," he says. "Do you think I forgave him and forgot what happened. It still haunts me to this day. I still have nightmares about it. I still hate him even after he died years ago, but I am not willing to kill people over it," Sara says. "I tried to move on, I tried to control it, but I couldn't. It became this monster inside of me that fought it's way out and won't go back in," he says. Sara can see his eyes changing. The vulnerability is gone and sadness is in it's place. "Then why don't you kill the monster, instead of the targets," Sara says without thinking. "I tried that, but it didn't work," he says as he touches his wrist. Caleb thinks back of the day he tried to end is life: