I'm back here pondering on what you said
I'm back here in my bed
Of the one main person you compared me to
And how I'm filled with dread.
I was there to make sure you could forget him
At least for a little while
But through my quest and trying my best
I feel I've failed my trial.
And for those who've seen my latest parts
about my fellow friend
This is not about that man
But instead one who's memories we all would wish would end.
To say that I'm like him
And compare me in the worst of ways
I wish it all would end.
All the hate, all the grief, all these fucked up opportunities
Has put me back in my shell
I feel like scum, I feel like dirt
And it has started to re-harden my softened heart.
I don't want to be like this
I want you in my life
Even if I'm just a piece of shit
Who's sometimes gives advice,
My goal right now is to make sure you're happy
Even if I lose some of mine
Because with all the shit we're going through
You will always be on my mind.
