To not speak
Of how I feel
The deepest
Hardest seating
Thoughts
Bleeding through
Gushing
No matter how
Hard I
Tried to clog
These holes
They leaked
Out sadness
No one could bear
Crying should not
Be an option
Weakness was defeat
Frailty was my condemnation
Of this soul
I bore
Pitiful
The eventful show
Of burning body parts
Severed and
Defenselessly being blown
Into small, fine dark ashes
By a miserably angry
Wind
Eyes stared
As judgmental as ever
Indulging themselves
With the sight
Of fiery
Mixing of life and death
My scream of pain
Was a sweet
Melody harmonized
By a thousand symphonic
Evil laughter
Adding ache after ache
Melting flesh
And tendering bones to the fullest
I could stop it
Run away from it
Forget,
Start over
But I wouldn’t
It’s a much deserved suffering
I could not resist
Everyone did not
Want to take on
Anything
But I did
If it’s one last thing I’d do
Before dusk
Good bye was all I could say
To a world I struggled to look at
Differently
Couldn’t say I didn’t try
As I know I did
But things
Run deceitfully
And often times
In ways you wouldn’t
Expect to survive
Today as I decided
To not speak
I’d keep these words
In a secluded spot
No one would ever find a way
To break in
