When Light Meets Dark - Kylo's Sister

Stranger

"One thing you can't hide - is when you're crippled inside."

~John Lennon

Kylo

The floor of my room felt cold as I sat down to meditate. I shut my eyes, trying to block out all sound. There must've been some sort of training session going on in the courtyard because I could hear, through my open window, blaster shots being fired rhythmically. The noise was impossible to block out and I waved my hand to slide the window shut. Silence. I tried again to slip into a meditative state, taking deep breaths. Nothing was working. Eventually, I gave up and rested against the foot of my bed. I had been struggling to meditate ever since I'd come back from Halcyon, and I wasn't sure why I'd expected this time to be any different.

Corrine had contacted me the night we'd returned.

It was with fear and a kind of twisted excitement that I'd found myself slipping into that subconscious state that my sister used to communicate with me. However it was different, I could see her this time. Well, fragments of her sort of floated in and out of my view. Her hands, her face, sometimes her entire body. It was like watching a film.

"I heard about your victory today," she said.

"It isn't mine alone to claim," I replied.

"Well you played your part," she said, as her head came into focus from the murky blackness. I looked at the perfectly arched brows which met over the long thin nose. She had Leia's nose.

"You know we're enemies, so why do you keep contacting me?" I asked.

"Enemies?" she sounded confused, maybe even a little hurt. She confused me.

"Yes, enemies." I repeated in exasperation.

She shook her head, her emerald eyes unblinking. I could not pretend that Corrine was not beautiful.

"Destiny brought us together. You are the one who has chosen the wrong side."

I scoffed. "I've had my fair share of both sides, yours is not the way."

"Really? And how is trying to be a jedi working out for you? Are you embracing the light side yet? Do you feel it calling to you?" Her questions came in rapid succession, her voice laced with malice. Her face had disappeared again.

I said nothing.

"Ah but it must that Jedi girl that's influencing you," she had added. "Her name is Rey, isn't it?"

Again I said nothing. But it was almost as if Corrine sensed that this was a different kind of silence as she said,

"I felt that."

"Felt what?" I asked. 

"Your anger when I mentioned her name, almost as if you did not want to hear it."

"Not from your mouth, no." I shot back quickly, but all of a sudden I felt very exposed.

"Has the girl offended you?" she asked. I glimpsed her shoulder and half of her face as she asked the question.

I couldn't answer. Soon Corrine's entire body emerged from the darkness. I could see her coming nearer and peering at me intently, her eyes gleaming.

"Tell me," she said softly.

I took a deep breath. I had not spoken about it to anyone and I was not sure I wanted to unburden myself upon a sister I hardly knew. Still...

"She decided that she doesn't want to be with me. Because I won't give her a child."