Temptation|| ✔️

Chapter Thirty Three

  Damon has to stay at the hospital for another night, something about observations. The ride back to Damons apartment with Christian was quiet. He didn't bother to ask me anything, which is unexpected because he always has questions. I attempted to start a conversation by asking questions like, oh how are you feeling? But, he only gave me short answers.

After that I didn't bother to ask anything else. When we arrived I quickly got into the shower. I had some of Damons blood on my shirt that I failed to realize was on there. My thoughts were rolling trying to figure out what I was going to say to Christian when I got out. He was obviously pissed about something. When I got out I quickly went to lay in the bed. I turned in the direction facing the wall, instead of Christians side.

I began to hear his footsteps come in and he sat at the end of the bed. The both of us sat in silence, not uttering a word and this was killing me to not ask what was wrong.

"We need to talk." He says quietly. I feel a lump in my throat when those words come out his mouth. I slowly sit up facing him. "Uh, about what?" I say kind of nervously. He looks at me directly in my eyes which worry me even more. He looks hurt by whatever he's about to ask me, and terrified.

"Do you have feelings for Nate, and Damon?"

I froze, not knowing what exactly to say. Do I? I'm so scared right now, what should I say? All I want to do is just cry. I love Christian, but I do. I open my mouth to say something, but nothing comes out.

"Well?" He says growing impatient. "I- I don't know. I think so." I try my best to look away from him. He stands up and scoffs. "What do you mean you think so?"

Oh no this is not going well. There are two ways this could go, the first is Christian will forgive me and move past this, and two, he breaks up with me. I start to play with my hands kind of nervous and look down avoiding any eye contact with him.

"I- I don't know. But I love you." I say honestly looking at him. He shakes his head and rubs his forehead. Tears come down my face already expecting the unexpected. "H-how? How could you do this to me?" He says. I scoff. "I'm sorry that I can't control my feelings Christian." It's true. I didn't plan on falling for them, just like I didn't plan on falling for Christian. Everything just happened out of nowhere, and to be honest, part of me isn't sorry that it did.

I watch him as he paces back and forth from the door back to the window. "I can't believe you right now. Out of all people I mean I understand Damon but Nathaniel? He's a complete asshole how could you possibly feel something for him?" The jealousy in his voice is completely visible. I stand up and walk over towards him, and he backs away putting his finger up, stopping me in my tracks. "Don't. Just don't. Leah he's done things, he's a terrible person how don't you see that?"

What a fucking hypocrite. I laugh at the fact that Nate would say the same thing. "And you aren't? Christian you have all these secrets that I don't know about! You have no room to talk!" I feel wrong for sticking up for Nate but Christian is no worse than Nathaniel is. I grab a change of clothes and tie my hair up, fed up with this discussion.

He stands in front of me as I make my way to the bathroom. "Me or him." I look him in his eyes and there is nothing but anger. I look back at him with desperation in my eyes, hoping he won't make me do this. "I can't do that. Christian please don't make me do this." Tears force themselves out of my eyes. He shakes his head and puts both onto my cheeks, forcing me to look at him.

"Baby I just need you to say it, me or him." No, I can't chose. If he loved me enough he wouldn't make me do this. I shake my head. "No, I won't choose. I can't." A single tear falls down his face and he lets me go.

"Then we're done." The words punch into my chest. Never have I felt so much anger, so much pain. He can't be serious right now. Done? As in forever? Tears stain my cheek as Christian leaves the room. I can't just give up, no, I won't. I follow after him and grabs his arm as he looks back at me.

"Christian don't do this please! I love you I've always loved you! Please don't leave me here!" I look at him with desperation in my eyes. He looks at me and quickly looks at me. If he loved me so much he wouldn't do this. He promised to never leave me and always be here.

I remove my hand from his arm and look at him. "You're a liar. You promised me. You promised to always be here. But you're just like the rest of them." He turns his head facing me.

"I hate you. If you don't want to be with me fine." My words fill the room along with the sobs. "You, you broke me. And if you loved me like you said you did, you would've trust the fact that I meant it when I said I wanted you. So fuck you Christian." I say as my voice cracks.

I storm back to the room and leave Christian standing in the living room, speechless. I pack my bags, knowing that I can't be here in the same house with him. I quickly throw on my black hoodie, and my jeans with my uggs and walk back to the living room to the front door.

"Where are you going?" He says softly. I look at him, pissed as ever. "Away. We aren't dating anymore so it's none of your concern." He opens his mouth to say something and looks down. "I'm sorry Leah. But I can't be with you knowing the fact that you like, him." The jealousy in his voice makes me feel for him. What infuriates me is the fact that he doesn't seem to trust me on the fact that it's just a couple of feelings that will go away. I'm with him and only him. I wish that he could understand that.

I drop my bags and my cheeks flush with anger. "Do you not trust the fact that I meant what I said about only wanting you?! You obviously are too fucked up in the head to just not see that! I've wanted you since that day at the mall! You made me feel these things that I never felt for anyone and the fact that you're doing this over some small feelings that will go away pisses me off! It hurts Christian it does! So if you can't be with me fine! Have a nice fucking life because I'm done!" I say yelling at him. Honestly this is probably the angriest I've been since I found out about my adoption.

He walks up to me, and places a kiss on my forehead. "Be safe." He simply says. Is that all he has to say? Tears attack my eyes at full force, making me leave quickly out of the apartment. I don't know where I'm going. I don't want to go back to the dorm, so I just walk down the street for a while, clueless.

I watch as the cars pass by me and my paranoia kicks in, forcing me to think about Meredith kidnapping me. I look down momentarily and back up to see a car pulling up in front of me.

A blue BMW i8 can only mean one person. "Nathaniel." I mumble as he rolls the window down. "Leah? What the hell are you doing out here?.." He asks me with a worried tone.

I look down and I hear his driver door open, and footsteps walking over to me. He grabs my bags and I quickly look up. "Get in." He says holding both my bags. I shake my head.

"I have a ride." I lie. He chuckles lightly. "Right, come on Leah get in the car." I keep my mouth shut and look away from him. From the corner of my eye I see him placing my bags inside of his car. Today rewinds in my head and the sobs let themselves out. Nathaniel picks me up from off of the ground and sits me in the car. For someone Nathaniel's size, he's very strong. I lay my head onto the window as he pulls off, and past the apartment building.

I can't believe I'm in his car, out of all unexpected places, I end up in his car. This is going to take a turn for the worst, and I'll end up hurt, again.