Letters to my Ex

Poem 1

Your lips trace my ear as
You tuck away a strand of hair
My breathing shallows and your
fingers dance along my blazing skin

Time slows down to a halt
Everything moves slow and steady
Except for my heart that is
beating faster by the second

You're teasing me
You're torturing me
You're making me work for your touch
You're making my body need you
And my god, does it

This is your game
The ball is in your court
I can't fight back,
I want this too much

But we're at somebody's party
What if someone walks in?
What if this?
What if that?

My mind is at war here
And your delicate fingers
that play with my bra strap
are a distraction

Your lips suddenly lose contact of my neck
And you have me leaning in for more
I capture your lips
We fragilely kiss

My body turns around
This kiss is my number one priority
Your tongue tastes like rum and cola
Your hot breath fans over my face
Your hands clamp down on my hips

And I'm suddenly lost
Lost in the thought of you
The taste of you,
The smell of you
Lost in you

My knees begin to wobble
I don't think I've ever been this needy
But I want you,
I need you

Waves, enormous waves of hormones
Crash like a tsunami inside me
And my body is just the poor little
Sail boat fighting to make it
Another day

Our feet dance randomly
Your chest touches mine
Our hands explore one another
And just like that,
We end up toppling onto the bed

Gasping for air, you break the kiss
I look into your eyes
They're hungry and dark
The subtle beat of music
Breaks me back to reality
We're about to do this

Do I want to?
Should I wait?
So many questions
And not enough answers

But before I fade out of this dream,
You suddenly pull me under
You're putting a spell on me
You're enticing me

And before I can ask any questions,
You answer all of them correctly saying:
"I love you"

~ Sydney Nicolson