Letters to my Ex

Letter 11 - Goodbye

Dear ex,

It's been at least five years since I last wrote one of these. I guess I was hoping that you would at least reply to one of my letters but I guess you never did.

You seem to be doing well. You've made it into a professional football team and I am proud of you. I, on the other hand, have a job as a restaurant manager in the city.

Oh, and I'm married. Yep, I'm married and I'm also expecting in six months. Time flies by quickly doesn't it? My husband is Liam, who funnily enough was the lacrosse player Gabbi couldn't stop oogling over at the end of sophomore. I graduated college and I sold my apartment in New York to a lovely couple a couple years after I had graduated.

Liam and I decided to take our relationship seriously and once he was finish with school, we packed up our things and moved to sunny California where his parents lived. My parents had a hard time trying to come to the fact that I was moving even further away from them but they eventually came around and now spend their Christmas's in California with us.

Stacey is now married to Matt and I'm happy for them. She asked me the other day if I would be okay with you coming to their wedding and I told them I didn't mind.

I've moved on and maybe you have too. I'm now married and am going to be a mother soon. It should be fine to see you at their wedding. I have told myself to let go and because of those wise words, I ended up in love with Liam.

I don't know what else to say but I hope you're happy and living a healthy life. I hope you got everything you ever wanted and more but I hope that you haven't broken anymore hearts. One's enough.

I have so many questions I want to ask you but I'll keep this letter short and sweet. I want to know if you've kept any of my letters and poems or if you've even considered writing back one day.

But I guess this is our final goodbye - my final goodbye to you. You've played a major impact on me, Josh, you've been the light at the end of the tunnel and you've pushed me to conquer my dreams. You broke my heart along the way and for some time, you've destroyed what love was to me. But I'm happy now. I've finished my road to recovery and in some way, writing these letters and poems have helped me vent my emotions.

We may have never been a perfect couple, but we were one of the greatest. But sometimes life does give you lemons and you have to deal with the sourness of those lemons. Because at the end of the day, you only live once and if I didn't let you go, I wouldn't be living in California with my husband. I wouldn't be writing this letter because my life would've still been a mess if I didn't fight to get over you.

So, this is me saying goodbye Josh. I loved you then and I love you now but you don't belong to me because just like the morals in books and movies:

"If you love them, let them go."