Love Never Dies (a JB love story)

Chapter 29

"You should've been there baby!", Justin said excited.

"Yeah", I said not really caring as I turned on my other side.

"Haha and Savannah was so drunk. She wanted to kiss me", he laughed.

"Did she?", I asked. Suddenly paying much more attention to what he was saying.

"No! Ofcourse not Alice"

"Okay"

"What's going on?", Justin asked.

"Nothing"

"Yeah sure... Come on baby what's wrong? Is this about last night? I know I should've come with you. Ariana was mad at me for the way I was acting. And I am sorry about what I said, I was drunk, I didn't mean a word of it", Justin said pulling me close. I tried to keep laying on my side but he was too strong.

"It's fine...I know you were drunk and I was tired so I get it. I'm fine"

"You're not. Don't lie to me, I know you. You were already acting strange before leaving the restaurant last night. What happened?"

"I've had a little arguement with Savannah. She said that you're hers, that we will be over soon, that we don't belong together. That I can't offer you the things she can because I am too young."

"I'm sure you understood that wrong babe, she would never say something like that", Justin smiled.

"Ofcourse" you could hear the hard tone in my voice. I was so disappointed, some part of me hoped that he would believe me. He shouldn't be defending her.

"You know what? Never mind.", I said getting out of bed.

"Don't be mad.", Justin frowned as he sat up.

"I just don't get why you're defending her", my voice became louder.

"I am not...."

"I also heard what you told Fredo last night. In the men's room. About how you wished I looked like Savannah because she is sooooo hot?", I felt tears burning in my eyes again.

Justin got out of bed now, slowly walking over to me.

"So you heard that? That's why you've been acting like this? Baby, I swear, I didn't mean what I said. I'd drink a little too much. I immediatly regretted it."

"You didn't. You know how insecure I am. Every single time you told me how beautiful I am, I believed you. You made me feel beautiful. Was it all a lie?", I asked, almost whispering.

"No! I swear to god. I didn't mean it. You are perfect to me. I don't want you to change! Please baby, I'm sorry.", Justin said looking into my eyes.

He wanted to hug me but I stopped him. I saw the hurt in his eyes.

"I can't do this anymore Justin", I whispered as I looked up at him. I felt a tear escaping from my eye.

"Why do I feel like you are breaking up with me?"

"Our worlds are so different. I'm still going to high school. I should be focusing on my studies, it's my senior year. And you, you should focus on your next tour, on your career."

"I can do all of that with you by my side Alice!", Justin said, desperately.

"I don't belong in this world of fame", I said looking anywhere but his eyes.

"You belong with me", Justin said, "What do you want?"

"I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT.", I shouted frustrated.

"I need time Justin", I then said softly, kneeling down on the ground. My legs were shaking and I didn't know if they would hold me.

What I was about to say next, made my heart break:

"Maybe we should take a break."

"DON'T", Justin was shouting now.

"FOR GOD SAKE ALICE. You can't just throw away 3 years." In frustration he pulled his hair.

"If we are meant to be, eventually we will find our way back to eachother.", I was sobbing now.

"That's bullshit", his voice cracked and he kneeled down too, taking my hans in his "all of this because of that Savannah chick? I don't care about her. I care about you. I love you, I want you. You're the only one that matters to me."

"It's not because of her Justin. I am just so tired. Tired of the hate I get because I am your girlfriend. I don't show it but it hurts me. Tired of missing you for weeks, tired of this long distance thing. Tired of the media. I am just so tired", I sobbed.

I know it wasn't far to him, he couldn't change the fact that he was famous, but I needed to be honest with him.

"I understand. You are 17. You've been in a relationship since you were 14. I get it. You are scared because your life is about to change because of senior year and college. But we made a promise a few months ago that we would love eachother for the rest of our lives. You basically promised me that you will marry me in a few years. I can't lose you Alice. I need you. Can't you see that?" He was making it so hard for me to leave. Justin was crying now too.

"Listen Justin, I love you with all my heart, I really do and I always will. You are the best thing that ever happened to me but for now, I think we should go our own ways. If you love me, you'll let me go"

At this point we both were sobbing. He pulled me close again and this time I let him. Our forheads were touching. We didn't say a word for a few minutes and just sat there: crying, thinking,... And then Justin broke the silence between us...

"I will give you your space. For now. But I will fight for you. I love you so much Alice" Justin whispered.

"I love you too", I whispered back.

And with that we pressed our lips together one last time. The kiss tasted salty because of of our crying. It was passionate. And I knew for sure that we were both trying to memorize this last kiss.I knew that breaking up was the best thing right now, but I hoped with all my heart that we would find our way back to eachother because I didn't know how I would be able to live a happy life without Justin by my side.