Colors of pain

"I thought"

I thought breaking up with you will set me free
But why am I trap in our memories
Why am I going back to the places that reminds me of you
And why do I keep finding myself wanting to go back to you
I thought breaking up with you would give me peace of mind
But Why can't I have peace of mind
Why can't I stop thinking of you with tears flowing from my eyes
And why does my heart hurts everytime I see you happy with someone else
I thought breaking up with you will make me happy
But why am I crying right now
Why am I regretting my decision now that you're happy with someone else
And why can't I find happiness ever since I left you
If I just hold on a little longer
And If only those thoughts don't appear on my mind
I wouldn't be trap in our memories
I wouldn't hurt everytime I see you happy with someone else
And I wouldn't be crying right now while regretting my decision of leaving you
Because If I don't leave you
Iam probably making memories with you
I am probably happy with you
And probably I'm not regretting right now
If only I never thought of breaking up with you