Colors of pain

"That one midnight"

It's already past midnight when I woke up because of some familiar noise
As I took a peek I smile bitterly and mumble "ah it's my parents voice
I pretended to be asleep cause I don't want to be included in their fight
But when I'm about to sleep my father said something that I never once thought
"That girl is the reason that's why we're so tight"
I freeze as I continue to listen to my father's words
Those words from my father break my heart
Cause I don't even know what's wrong on my part
I covered myself with the blanket
And hug myself tightly
I cried continuously and silently
As I question myself
What have I done wrong?
Am I a bad daughter?
But I have done everything that they tell me to
So why
Why does my father hate so much?
Why does he only see the bad in me
Is it my fault? If it is please someone tell me what to do
Cause I don't my father to hate me
And I specialLy don't want them to suffer because of me
I woke up and I'm crying again
Before I realized it that one midnight
Already become my nightmare
The nightmare that hunt me every night in my sleep
The nightmare that my parents never knew
Is the nightmare that leave a mark on my heart
And those questions that never got an answer
I still ask them to myself until now
What have I done wrong?
Am I a bad daughter?
But I have done everything that they tell me to
So why
Why does my father hate so much?
Why does he only see the bad in me
Is it my fault? If it is please someone tell me what to do
Cause I don't my father to hate me
And I especially don't want them to suffer because of me
Those people behind those familiar noise and voice are gone now
but I'm still here stuck on that one midnight
And living in a nightmare full of unanswered questions