The nanny• Kim Namjoon

Chapter 41

Namjoon woke up from the best sleep he's had in years, he stirred a bit, realizing that he's not sleeping alone.

"Oh" he looked down and saw Diana clinging onto him for dear life. Her arms were wrapped around his waist, her head rested near his heart and her legs was wrapped around his waist; a little under her arm. Namjoon was sure his heart was malfunctioning.

He couldn't move, correction, he didn't want to move.

His mind went back to what happened last night, the way she cried, the things she said and how hard she slapped him. Namjoon was certain that her behaviour came from a trauma in her childhood and he was scared, he didn't know what to do in a sensitive situation like this, they barely knew each other but namjoon needs to gain her trust as soon as possible, he doesn't want Diana to continue being hurt like this.

Lately Namjoon has been different, he used to be very organized and focused. He used to know what to do and how to do it, he knew the consequences and the reasons for the way things turned out but lately he's been all over the place.

He spends some of his nights thinking about her when he should be working, he worries about her, he cares about her deeply, namjoon hasn't felt this way for someone in his life and he didn't want to dwell on it, he was afraid of the conclusion.

Diana began to stir in her sleep and tightened her grip on his waist then snuggled closer to him. He felt like he couldn't breathe because of the proximity.

He couldn't understand his relationship with Diana- just by calling their affiliation a relationship caused a little heat to rush to his cheeks but exactly what was it?

Namjoon doesn't regret letting his guard down, letting the walls he didn't know existed to be broken down by Diana, she builds bridges and moved into him, walking into his very being and taking advantage of him, in a good way.

His children loved her more than they loved their own mother and If their mother was to go, they wouldn't even notice if their DeeDee was there for them. Diana did her job well, cleaning, cooking, etc but she brought more to mansion than just what she's required to bring, she brought a fresh amount of love, morals and emotions, she brought a sense of family that was turning this big expensive mansion into a home.

She was everything a man like namjoon needed but he couldn't have her like that, her job is to take care of his children, she was a caregiver not a caretaker, but she still held onto to the care that namjoon was giving her.

He knew that Diana isn't complete, he knew that she isn't perfect but he still feels completed whenever he's with her and maybe they needed to completed each other, he didn't pray to a god but he always hoped for his other half, he always wanted someone who would understand him and take care of him and he knew that his wife wasn't that person.

But he didn't know who Diana was, he didn't know why she's in Korea, he doesn't know if she has siblings, Diana was a stranger to him, he felt like he was willing to give his everything to a stranger but he felt like his everything belonged to her, she was the missing puzzle piece in his wife but he didn't want to draw conclusions, he was too afraid.

There was more to come, more things to know about each other, secrets to uncover, confessions to be made, hearts to be broken and tears to be shed, nothing good in life would be easy to have.

But he didn't know if he really wanted Diana to be his wife, there was still more to happen and he doesn't want to lose her in the process, love isn't something that works with timing and fate, it was scary.

"Seems like you're lost in that big brain of yours" Diana's morning voice was heavenly to namjoon's ears as she spoke. He wasn't startled by her sudden speaking but he was relaxed and relieved because she didn't curse him out.

"Good morning, Diana" Namjoon said and swiftly removed his hand from her hair. "Good morning Mr Kim" she responded with a smile. "Why's your heart beating so fast?" She asked and his heart started beating faster out of nervousness. She looked up at him and placed her hand on his chest and felt his heart beating directly on her hand.

Diana was breath-taking and heart-beat-speeding in her natural state.

Namjoon noticed that she had a scar above her lip and began to wonder why he didn't see it before. "We don't have to talk about what happened yesterday if you don't want to, when you're ready, I'm always here to listen" he said and grabs her hand, giving it a light squeeze for assurance.

This is when Diana realized how much of a good man namjoon was, how much he didn't deserve what she was doing behind his back.

Time skip

"Mr Kim," Diana called while she leaned on the door frame of namjoon's study. He looked up from his laptop and took off his spectacles, giving her his full attention, "come in" he instructed and she sat in the chair opposite him.

"can you remove the cameras from in my room? I really need my privacy, masturbating and doing other sacred things are uncomfortable to do in the bathroom all the time "she complains, "I did not need to know that, but I'll see what I can do" he says and watches as she smiles.

She gets up and begins to walk out of his study and that's when he notices what she was wearing She wore a knee length maxi dress with ruffles at the end and a ballerina shoe. She looked simple but very cute. If a Korean woman were to wear something like this, she would indeed look cute but Diana was thick in all the right places which made dress look very revealing and inappropriate

But the way her ass looked when she walked would cause traffic and he didn't want another man look at Diana like that. "go change that dress" namjoon ordered causing Diana to stop walking and turn to face him. "why should I?" she folds her arms akimbo.

"don't get me wrong, you look cute and all but I don't think you should wear that in broad day light when your ass moves like that" he shamelessly points out and Diana blushes a bit "you were watching my ass? Diana marvelled, "any human being with eyes would see your ass, you've got quite the ass there "he internally slaps himself for his choice of words but praises himself when Diana blushes and giggles.

"who are you going out with anyway? "namjoon asked, "I'm going to a café with seojoon" namjoon felt his nose twitched at the mention of his name, "change before you leave "he orders a bit sternly which causes Diana to cock an eyebrow but she obeys, walking off, purposely swaying her hips because she knew that namjoon would be watching and he was.