Roses Bloom Among Thorns

It's All My Fault

"He had lost quite a bit of blood and had a broken arm when he got here and passed out cold a few minutes after he showed up due to to much blood loss." Madam Pomfrey said "But he should be up and going in time for the ball if all goes well but if he isn't up soon we may need to keep him over night to see how he is in the morning."

"That looks so much worse now that you can see all the cuts." Ginny said

"He beat him that bad." Harry said in disbelief walking over to Draco.

"Poor boy it's very sad that something of this sort has happened, this hasn't ever happened before. I fear that Mr. Weasley must be expelled for taking this to these sort of extremes we can not allow this to go on anymore." Dumbledore said. I looked at Draco's face he looked peaceful as he slept except for the tear stains and bruises on his face. I wiped them away and he looked like he wasn't even in any pain at all like everything was fine and he was never hurt. I started to cry silently as I looked at his battered and bruised face. How could one of my best friends have done this? Ron is not like this, what happened to him? The tears dripped silently to the floor as I looked down unable to see the pain he had inflicted upon him. All because of me. It was my fault all of it. Ron beating Draco was all my fault. He just didn't wan Draco to play me and Draco just wanted to save me he wanted to protect me just like Ron. Now Draco was hurt and passed out and Ron was being expelled. I couldn't stand it anger boiled up inside of me for myself. I was the reason all this was happening. I let myself drop with a thud to the floor. I cried. Everyone came over to see what had happen but I just cried in anger at myself for making this all happen. I grabbed a tight hold to my hair and curled up in a ball on the floor blocking everyone out. Everyone was desprately trying to get me to let go of my hair and talk to them but I just kept crying and saying how it was all my fault and no matter what they said I knew it was the truth. People always tell you it's not your fault, but people lie, you know that if you hadn't been there it would have never happened, but you were, and it did, and it almost always came with concequences that only hurt you worse in the end. I couldn't take all this pain in my heart. I was about to slam one of my fists on the ground when a hand caught it. I tried to pull my hand away but I couldn't I went to use my other fist but they caught tht one too. They held my hands by the wrists and wouldn't let go. I cried even more, I needed to realease this I needed to let all this anger out. I ripped my hand out of their grip and their nails cut my wrists a little but I didn't care. I stood up and tried to run but they caught my hands again and held them behind my back. I elbowed them in the chest and they let go with a groan of pain and I took off running. I ran out my eyes blurred with tears. I was running fast everything going by footsteps from behind me people yelling for me to stop. I didn't realized it until it happened, I hit the rail that was in front of me and flipped forward over it. I heard aloud screams and footsteps getting louder and quicker. I grabbed onto one of the bars that went to the rail and hung there over a hundred feet in the air. It'd all be over if I let go there wouldn't be anyone fighting over me anymore. Draco'd stop being beaten by Ron and Ron wouldn't have a reason to kill him anymore. Someone appeared over me my eyes still a little blurry with tears I could barely make out who it was. It was Draco. He yelled for me to take his hand but I just hung there my hands getting weaker and hurting even more as I hung there. I knew I couldn't hold on long due to my hands being bleeding but I didn't take his hand.

"It's all my fault." I said and Draco knew what I was about to do.

"No Hermione! Please I need you do not drop! Please your all I have! I need you to be here with me! I need you! It's not your fault! I can't let you drop please your all I have! Those flowers were proof of that those dances we shared were proof I need you! I love you!" He said and that last one caught her. He loved her. Draco Malfoy loved her. Wait a second flowers? Dances? Draco? It was him all this time. Draco Malfoy was the boy of my dreams. He was the mysterious maqurade date. "Please Hermione I could never live with myself if you died right now. Don't fall, fly or we'll never have a try." he said refering to the song he sang me that won him the singing contest. He started crying too holding his hand out for me to take. I still couldn't get over the shock that it was him. "If you don't take my arm right now I'm going to come down there and hang right next to you. One armed right next to you. You drop I do too." he said

"Don't you dare I swear if you do that I will never forgive you." I said harshly

"Then take my hand!" he yelled. I had to take it I couldn't die for him only for him to die too. I took his hand and he pulled me up. Once I was up I walked away ashamed with myself and still angry with myself for this being all my fault. I said nothing to anyone as I walked away. Draco tried to follow me but Harry and Ginny held him back. He yelled in protest, he yelled for me to come back, back to him. Then he said something that broke me that really made me feel like I wasn't wanted anymore. "IF YOU REALLY LOVED ME YOU WOULDN'T DO THIS TO ME! IF YOU HAD REALLY LOVED ME YOU WOULD HAVE TAKEN MY HAND THE SECOND I OFFERED IT!" I whipped around looked him directly in the eye tears pouring down my face like a waterfall and said

"IF YOU REALLY LOVED ME YOU WOULDN'T HAVE HAVE JUST SAID I DON'T LOVE YOU! BECAUSE I DID THAT'S WHY I WASN'T GOING TO TAKE YOUR HAND! TO STOP ALL THE PAIN AND SUFFERING YOU'VE GONE THROUGH BECAUSE YOU LOVED ME NOTHING GOOD EVER HAPPENS TO ANYONE WHO LOVES ME!" I yelled at the top of my lungs "NOBODY CAN LOVE ME! THEY CAN'T AND IF THEY DO I HOPE THEIR PARENTS CAN PAY THE FEE FOR ALL THE MENTAL HELP THEY NEED BECAUSE NO ONE CAN OR ELSE THEY END UP HURT AND THERE'S NOTHING I HATE MORE THAN SEEING THE PEOPLE I LOVE HURT!" I screamed and everyone else went silent. Draco looked at me with apologetic eyes but I glared at him and turned around and walked away.

"Hermione I didn't mean it!" he yelled down the hall to me and without looking back I said

"Nobody ever does but that doesn't fix the hurt in my heart where they stabbed it. That doesn't CHANGE the fact that they said it and you never say anything you don't really mean!" I said and it was true usually when people started on like he did they yell things they mean and I knew that one was one that was all to real. "Don't you dare try to tell me who I really love ever again." I said with so much venom in my voice that it was like the words were meant to kill. "Because I do love you but it was obviously some big joke for you." I said taking one look over the side and jumping. For the first time that night someone had remembered they were wizards and just as she was about to hit the floor a spell was cast that made the floor feel like she had just jumped onto her bed. Dumbledore pocketed his wand and walked away back towards his office. Draco looked at me like he was so dissapointed. Yeah he's just dissapointed you didn't die like you were supposed to. I told myself and I got up and ran for the doors. I ran out the back doors and all the way around the building to the front and ran for Hogsmeade. Once I got there I stopped running and was so out of breath that I could barely stand. Once I was back to normal I started walking down the street just for one last look at the place. I looked around and in a store window saw the most beautiful dress ever a silver ball gown with white snowflakes all over it. I looked at the tag and it said

"Sold to Mr. Draco Malfoy for his lucky lady
Due for pick up at 1:30pm on Sunday" on the tag. He had bought this dress for me to wear tonight. He was going to secretly send it to me like he did the roses probably. Oh well he didn't love me I already knew that. I saw Hogwarts' front doors fly open and a few people come out running for Hogsmeade. I didn't leave yet I was going to wait for them to see me leave. Harry, Ginny, and Draco jogged down to see if I was there. I turned my back and just kept looking at the dress. I heard them coming yelling my name but it'd be hard with the huge crowd that there was now. I still stayed admiring the dress. I then had an idea. I apperated into the front window of the store and took out a pen I had brought from home and a piece of parchment. I wrote a note on it signed my name and put it on the maniquine that had the dress on. I just stayed in the window for a while until Harry came over and found me looking at the dress. He yelled for everyone else and they came running. I stood in front of the maniquin so they couldn't see the note and waited for them all to show up. once they did they just stared at me in the shop window and I waved and appereated out.