tacenda || f.hargreeves (0): A PREQUEL (COMPLETE)

Part 5: Evanescent

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"Nine?" Five calls out, frowning. He had followed her when she lashed out on him, and he immediately wanted to apologize for giving her such false information from before. He knew he wasn't being honest with her, and the reason was, he was afraid. Yeah, afraid.

He hates to admit it, he missed their sex. He doesn't want to pull out anymore nor use protection he had scavenged. He wanted more. He wanted to have a family with her, but he was afraid it'll be too late now. She didn't even give him full consent when they started doing it in the first place.

"Things got pretty heated," She would tell him, and reassure him that it's fine. But, Five had this feeling that Nine was somehow forcing herself.

"Am I not good enough?" He would asked her. He knew not to question her because he knew she had been honest with him ever since they were young. But, he has doubts. He doesn't want to tell her, but he doubted her. He felt insecure, even if they were the only ones that had always been together.

He felt as if he wasn't giving his all to her. He felt as if he was still lacking things with her. He felt as if she deserved better. But, he never wanted to admit that.

He was already afraid.

He didn't want to show her his weakness.

At least, not now.

Nine would give him a look that he never understood. He wasn't so sure if it was an upset one or a guilty one. She would smile at him, "Oh, Five," she would whisper, "You're always good enough for me. You're perfect, and I wouldn't do anything to change that."

"I love you, okay?"

And that would always be her final words to him.

"Nine," Five calls out again, and this time, she turns around to face him. Five felt relief washing over him. 'She didn't cry,' he thought to himself, 'That's my girl.'

"I'm sorry."

"I know," Nine answers him. 

'Of course, she does.' Five thought to himself. 'She always does.'

She isn't smiling nor frowning at him. She just looked at him with dull eyes, like she always does when they would get into an argument and after that. He would question her, and she would question back. And in their last moments, they would stop whenever she would dismisses it. Five knew that she needed to control herself. He hated it, how she would shut herself from him. He never understood why, but all he can understand was she never meant her words. He felt it, he would still feel her love for him even how much he fucked up. And, he never once heard her yell at him, but he would always shudder when she turns cold. Very cold.

Five takes a few steps towards her before giving her a look, as if asking her permission before he goes up to her fully. Nine's eyes softens, and Five knew this was his first cue. 

"I'm sorry, sweetheart..." He whispered, reaching his hands towards her. Nine sighed. Another cue. He finally reached her, his arms now wrapped around her waist like it always has.

"I didn't mean to offend you."

"You didn't," Nine mumbles in response, slowly leaning her head on his chest. This was the last cue. She had forgiven him.

Five pressed his lips on her head, "I don't want to lose you. I was just..."

"Afraid?" Nine continued, looking up to meet his eyes.

"Yeah..."

"Well, don't be. I understand."

"You always do," Five whispers, "And I love you for that."

"I know. I love you too."

Five pulls her close to him, never wanting to let go. "Do you forgive me?" He asked, but he already knew the answer. Nine hums in response, it always were. Five didn't say anything next, but just held her close to him. That's all that matters now.

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Five stared at Nine, who was busy plotting another equation on the wall next to her. Her fingers were moving fast as she mumbles to herself.

"You should get some rest, sweetheart." Five tells her, and she hums in response.

"Nine," Five tries again, "I'll take over. I'll finish it for you if you'd like."

Nine paused, shaking her head at him. "It's okay. I can finish this."

"But, I miss you."

Nine stops herself, turning around to look at him. A small smile crept up on her lips as Five gave her a pout in return. She giggles, "I'm not that far, you know."

"I know. But, I wanna cuddle."

"You're so needy," Nine replied, placing the marker down before opening her arms at him, "Come here."

Five's eyes lightens up and nearly tackled her as he quickly jumped on her. Nine's laugh echoes through his ears, sending a shiver down his spine. He buried his face on her neck, giving it a few pecks. He pulls away for a moment, "You smell."

"You do too!" Nine exclaims, laughing. Five gives her a smug smile before leaning down to press his lips unto hers. Nine quickly responded, running her fingers through his now long black and grey hair. Five pressed himself against her, his right knee resting between her thighs. 

As their passionate kiss turns into a heated one, Nine pulls away, causing him to groan in response. "What gives?" Five asked, his voice hinting with annoyance.

"Let's do it."

"W-what?" Five stammers, excitement filling his eyes and chest. He gives her a wide grin, "Do you mean it?"

Nine nods, returning his expression. Five then frowns, "With protection?"

"Do you want to do it with protection?"

"No!"

Nine raised an eyebrow at his sudden reply, she can feel his excitement overflowing him. Five cleared his throat, a blush creeping on his cheeks. Nine places her hand on his cheek, "I want to start a family with you now."

"What about the equipment? The environment? This is bad for the baby."

"We'll figure something out," Nine told him, "We always do."

"You're right." Five breathes out, nodding.

Nine leans in, her lips brushing his softly. "Well then... Come get me, tiger."

Five growls at her, her use of words turning him on. He didn't hesitate on pulling her close to him, and closing the gap between their lips. Without breaking their kiss, he pulled her up and made her jump, her legs now wrapped around his waist. Nine's hand roam on his chest and down to the tent that was forming in his jeans. Five lets out a small whine, causing her to giggle as she continues to rub him through his jeans.

"Ah crap," Five moaned, "Don't stop."

Pure ecstasy fill their bodies as soft kisses turned into harsh ones, their pelvic humping, hands roaming to familiar places they had explored before. This is what Five wanted. Him, her, his needs and her needs combined into one without worrying anything at all. He felt happy, and he knew she do too.

She was ready for him, for the big thing. She was ready to start a family with him. And, Five would happily give and meet her needs. They were together again, and he felt more excited. He never wanted to let her go. He never wanted to doubt her again. She is giving all of her to him.

No more protection in the way, no more trying to pull away. Just pure love.

And he knew the she knew, that that's all that matters.

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A/N: Sorry I took so long to upload. I have to keep up with my schedules and such since my first week of school would be starting soon. But yeah, here you go.