forever// 5SOS

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Ava

Leaving school on Friday was heavenly. Grandma met me, signing us out and taking my hand. Ashton has challenged me to a full day, and I didn't even feel pressured.

The week had got better, but I couldn't see myself loving school anytime soon. All that kept me going was Ashton picking me up after seeing Lucy.

"Are you excited for tomorrow?"

"Yes,"

"I'm not supposed to tell you, but I feel like I need to incase you don't want it. Lauren was thinking of taking us to get our nails done," grandma said.

"What do they do?"

"Well, you will just get them painted a nice colour, and they'll make them a nice shape,"

"I guess,"

"We will both be there too,"

I nodded and got in the car, grandma starting to make her way home. As I watched out the window, and couldn't help but stare a everyone. People were walking past, smiling and laughing on their way out of school. All the boys looked so happy, and caring, and admittedly cute.

And so did the girls.

And this made me panic a lot, because I didn't know if that was normal. Especially after Ashton had explained everything, it sounded like only girls and boys could be in love.

None of the books I read had girls with girls. None of the films I watched had boys with boys.

So I couldn't tell my family, just incase something was wrong.

Since I'd stayed the whole day at school, grandma dropped me straight of at the office.

"Ashton said he'd come, will you be okay?"

"I think so,"

She kissed my cheek and smiled, driving away once I was sat down. I texted Ashton that I was here, but he didn't reply.

Everything was starting to stress me out. I'd had a long day at school, I was scared something was wrong with me, and now Ashton wasn't replying.

If Lucy hadn't come out, I probably would've cried.

"Hey Ava, thankyou for coming today instead,"

"It seemed important to not come yesterday,"

"You are important too though, take a seat. Would you like a drink?"

"Some water please,"

She got two bottles from a small fridge, bringing them from the hallway, into the office with us.

"How has school been since last time?"

"It's getting better, I guess. I stayed the whole day,"

"That's so good, but if it's pushing you too much then you can say no,"

"I didn't do more work, but it was hard being there,"

"It's all in small steps, if you rush then you'll overwhelm yourself,"

I nodded and looked down, curling my feet up onto the sofa. Suddenly, I felt small, and vulnerable.