Fluffy and Beautiful

Ch. 3

A/N: sorry if it starts boring

But it'll get better I promise.

Warning! If you're triggered by self harming or you feel discomfort then don't read ahead

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"So, doll, now that we are walking back to the Compound, tell me about yourself." Bucky continued to smile and I chuckled.

"Well, my dad took me in when he found me when I was just 9 months old. Then he officially got to adopt me when I was a one year old. Uhhhh.... I love food. I have medical problems: asthma, and other things. I finished college and I'm applying for a job at the moment. I love to read, I love to write short stories, I love to draw, the team is a crazy family. I love animals. I love—— you know what I'm talking too much I'm sorry." I sheepishly laughed as I adjusted my glasses making Bucky chuckle.

"No no. It's fine. I promise. You're an interesting person." Bucky said making me blush.

"Uh... sorry... I'm just.... I'm an awkward person." I chuckled and I felt that I was turning even redder.

Just wonderful Esperanza. What an idiot. My conscience said making me shake my head as we continued to walk.

"Well, my best friend is Steve as you may know. And the rest of my story I'll tell you later." Bucky frowned making me rub his arm.

"It's okay. I'm here if you need me." I smiled at him making him nod.

We arrived at the Compound and he held the door open for me making me smile.

"Thank you."

"No problem doll."

We walked to the kitchen where we saw the team talking and then they stopped making me smile a bit.

"Esperanza. Why did you ignored us when we were calling out for you? I was worried sick!" Dad said making me groan.

"I was just out with Brad. Nothing bad...." I said but then Bucky had to step up.

"I actually met her along the way and...." Bucky said but then looked at me causing me to plead for him to not say anything.

"We just walked back.... Brad had to leave..." Bucky said in regret making me sigh.

"Well, I'm going to my room.... bye." I waved and then walked to my room.

Once I was inside, I decided to check my phone. I love Brad. He was probably just in a bad mood today?

Brad:

You are so lucky he saved you, pig.
Me:
Listen, are you in a bad mood? Because I didn't do anything.

Brad:

Just by you breathing makes me sick.

Brad:

I'm sorry. That sounded mean. I shouldn't have said anything. Love you.

I sighed. I put my phone down and teared up. Brad was a sweetheart when I met him, he would always treat me right and now I have no idea what happened. I hated myself.

I walked to the bathroom and took out a blade that was in the drawer. I carefully put it on my wrist and began to cut.

"Useless." I whispered and added a line.

"Idiot."

"Fat." I continued to say while I cried.

The fresh red lines were now visible and I threw out the blade and carefully cleaned up my cuts. I put a bandage over it and then I looked at myself in the mirror.

Did the team think of me like Brad did?

I decided to get a tub of ice cream to get my self ready for a long night of Netflix. I checked both ways when I was in my door as I rolled down my long sleeve and headed to the kitchen.

I opened the freezer to retrieve my strawberry ice cream tub. When I closed it, I jumped and saw Wanda staring at me.

"Hey Esperanza."

"Hey Wanda. What are you doing up?" I casually asked when I got a spoon.

"I couldn't sleep, knowing that I have another mission tomorrow. How are you?" She asked me when she grabbed some brownies that were in the microwave.

Oh you know. Just being the shitty, overweight girlfriend that tends to be happy but in reality she's not.

"I'm fine. I will be fine." I have her a tight smile as I opened up the lid of the tub and took a spoonful and ate it.

"Oh my God." I moaned when I finished eating the spoonful of ice cream making Wanda chuckle.

"You're not okay. I can tell." Wanda whispered making me slowly look at her.

"I'm fine. I promise." I said but her eyes travelled to my wrist causing me to slowly turn away and walk back to my room.

"Okay. I'm here if you want to talk okay love?" She said making me nod and walk away.

"Night Wanda." I said as I headed down the hallway.

I bumped into someone making me almost fall along with my ice cream but the person's reflexes were fast enough to catch me. I looked up to see who it was.

"Well hello there doll." He smiled making my insides explode.

"Hi. I'm so... sorry. I should've watched where I was going." I quickly said and his eyes travelled to my wrist.

"Doll..." he gently took my wrist and I saw that my sleeve went up causing the bandage to appear.

"It's nothing." I harshly took away my hand.

"I'm here." He softly said making me sigh.

That's when an idea popped up in my head.

"Can I ask you something?" I said making him nod.

"Can you become my personal trainer?" I said making him look at me in confusion.

"Uhh... sure if you want." He smiled a bit making my heart melt.

"Okay. Just tell me when you want to start so that I can get ready."

"Tomorrow will be fine. Get ready by 6 AM and meet me in the gym." He smiled before walking away.

6 AM?????

I can't even wake up at 12 PM.

I sighed and then walked back to my room.