Fluffy and Beautiful

Ch. 9

A/N: warning!

Self harm and other things.

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I was silent throughout the week. I would work out with Bucky and he would encourage me to speak. He would ask me questions but all I did was nod or shake my head. I wasn't eating much like I used to. I still cut, since I feel like shit at the moment.

It was 1:13 PM and I somehow managed to get out of the Compound without anybody noticing me. Not even Bucky. I felt bad for ignoring Bucky, but I couldn't help but freak out every time I went out.

I drove to the Central Park and parked. I walked out and looked around me to see normal people laughing and children smiling. I walked and breathed in the fresh air. As soon as I was about to walk underneath one of the bridges, I could sense someone stalking me. I held tightly onto my purse and looked around my surroundings.

I felt like I was dying from anxiety at the moment. I scratched a bit on my arm due to my eczema, and walked a bit faster so that I could walk towards the people hay were nearby. Suddenly I felt someone put their hand on my mouth making me try to scream. My body was being dragged towards the side of the bridge, behind some big bushes and the person pushed me against the wall.

I began to tear up when I saw Brad, dressed in all black, and smirked.

"What are you doing!!! Help!" I screamed but Brad smacked me and held me by my throat making me choke.

My purse was no longer in my hands since I was trying to get his hand away from my neck. That's when he stopped and held me tightly my my waist and began to unzip his pants. Oh no. I was still a virgin. Brad would try to convince me to have sex with him but I only said no because I was waiting to lose it to my future husband.

"You pig. I told you I was watching you. Pathetic, I saw the way you were laughing with your family. Let's see who can help you now." He said making me bite his hand.

He quickly recovered and i got pinned down to the floor. I began to cry and he injected something on my neck. I felt weak, useless and ashamed. I began to see blurry making me cry less and I struggled to get free. The last thing I saw was Brad forcefully putting down my skinny jeans and my underwear.

I groaned and saw that my purse was almost ruined and I looked down to see dry blood that was trailing down my thigh. I silently cried as I tried to put my underwear back on and my skinny jeans. I was mentally whining due to the pain that was in between my legs. I stood up and carefully bent down to get my purse. I took out some napkins and used my half empty water bottle and used it to clean up the dried blood.

It was still there.

"Stupid Esperanza." I cried and supported my arm against the concrete wall.

"Stupid. Stupid." I cried and began to hit my head against the concrete wall.

I stopped when I felt something wet. I put my hand on my forehead and saw that I had blood. Great fucking great. I slowly walked back to my car and people were staring at me in disgust. I felt ashamed,  I felt tired and sat down on one of the benches that were available. I noticed an old lady giving food to the ducks and I silently cried. I looked down to my purse and saw my phone that was now cracked.

Why is my life so fucking shitty?!

"It'll get better." The old lady said making me shake my head while weakly smiling at her.

"I wish. My life is shit." I cried making her smile.

"It'll get better. Trust me." She said and then stood up to give me a hug and walked away.

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I got back to the Compound somehow and then quietly walked in. I could tell that the team was currently in the kitchen so I tried my hardest to walk faster towards my room. I felt my phone vibrating and saw that Brad had texted me. I didn't even bother to check the message. I sent him a text saying that I was over and I silently cried as I closed the door to my room.

I locked my door and slowly sank down to the floor and tossed my purse aside. I began to hyperventilate. I freaked out and was crying as I pulled my hair that had multiple leaves. I lost my virginity without consent. I lost my virginity without consent.

"Stupid! I'm so stupid! No wonder shitty things happen to me!" I yelled in frustration and hit my head against the door.

"Fuck this." I cried and tried my hardest to go to the bathroom.

I grabbed my pocket knife and began to angrily slice my skin. I think I sliced it to deep when I saw a gush of blood.

"Oh shit." I cried.

Third Person POV:

"Hey man. Is Esperanza here?" Sam asked Bruce who was silently reading 'To kill a Mocking Bird.'

"Yeah. Let me check up on her. Today is her anniversary with Brad." Bruce said and stood up.

Bucky on the other hand was pissed due to Bruce mentioning Brad. Bruce silently whistled and was in front of his daughter's room. He remembered the first night that he took her in. He wouldn't trade it for the world.

"Hey, Esperanza? We need to talk about Brad. It's your anniversary. It's about time that we talk how you feel about him. So open up, come on mi amor." Bruce said and knocked on her door.

No answer.

Just silence.

"Esperanza, I know you're probably upset that you didn't get to spend it with him today. Okay? By don't take out your anger on me, I'm just trying to help. Open the door." Bruce said once again and knocked.

No answer still.

Just silence.

Bruce began to internally freak out but managed to not to break out.

"Esperanza. Open the door now." Bruce began to lose patience and knocked louder.

No answer.

"I'm going to break the damn door if you don't open it I swear. Open this door because we need to talk. I know you can hear me!" He got agitated.

But still, there was no answer.

"Okay. I'm done. Friday! Tell the team to come here now." Bruce told the AI.

"Yes Dr. Banner."

Soon enough the team came towards Bruce who was shaking from the anger. Natasha quickly went to hug him.

"What's wrong?" Sam asked making Bruce shrug.

"She's not answering her door! I'm worried!" Bruce said.

Bucky and Steve glared at the door and then worked together to break the door down. Once the door was down, Bruce, Bucky and Tony quickly went to the bathroom which was opened.

"Bruce!" Steve said making Bruce shake.

"What's wrong?" Natasha asked.

Bruce saw his daughter, passed out on the floor, with blood all over the counter. He noticed the dirt on her clothes and the blood. He began to cry, Tony quickly checked to see if she had a pulse.

"Come on! There's still time!" Tony urges and the team gasped when they saw Esperanza on the floor.

Bucky carefully carried her and silently cried.

"Oh doll. Please stay." He begged as they all rushed to the lab.

"I can't lose you."