Careless (completed)

Chapter 15 : It's not in my head!

Recap: Lucy is devestated (again) cuz Sally told her that Justin her crush is a womanizer. She is on her way home to see her therapist.

Lucy's pov

After kicking his car and leaving the parking lot I walked the same street I always walk through. But, this time I stood infront of the restaurant. I relaxed my hands and wet my lips.

I came here and you were there!! I want to know exactly what is going on with my life.

Am I not supposed to be happy?!!

If my phone was with me I'd probably enter the restaurant and call the unknown number, if it rang then it was you all along!

I realized that whatever I'm doing here is totally useless and that I had to go to mom. Didn't take me long before I reached home. With the thought that it's the place to rest finally.

Dad's car was parking which was weird. Dad never came home that earily.

I rang the bell when mom opened with relief on her face. It was obvious as the moon on a stareless night. We had an appointment and we were late already.

"Get ready in 5, we have to see the therapist."

"ok." I'm so angry right now!!

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Moving towards the place you wanna go with out anyone pretending to care.

What will happen if I didn't comb my hair to school?

I always look at the ground when I'm walking. I thought as I watched my convers, one leg after the other. I moved faster when mom called to sit beside her. We were at the hospital. I wanted to concentrate on anything else that's why I was randomly thinking about weird stuff. My shoes were one of the thoughts I escaped reality with.

Now, what can I possibly think about to make everything better? To delete the fact that I'm meeting my therapist.

Imagine. I'm absolutely going to imagine my perfect life and my dream fantasy until it's my turn to see the therapist!

I rested my head and imagined a green field full of tall red flowers...no! Purple...purple roses are gonna be better.

I'm wearing a dress of the 1770's. Blue and old but cosy and beautiful. It's windy and I enjoy the air while running through the flowers and jumping on them.

I see trees and mountains.

Suddenly, I heard my name being called out loud spoiling the perfect moment and forcing me to open my eyes.

I honestly miss the unknown phone guy who ever the hell he is!

I entered and the therapist had the same silly frustrating smile plastered on her face.

"Please, sit. " She requested.

"I was gonna sit anyway. Don't act polite!" I said as I sat on the black couch.

"Okay..." She replied looking at my parent who were just about to sit. My mom smiled politely probably embarassed, moving her handbag and putting it on her lap.

"Lucy, I see you're unhappy. Can you tell me why?"

"Why would I be happy?"

"Lucy! She's trying to help you...Please co-operate with her!!" Mom yelled at me.

"Please, Mrs.Royal...Give her some space." The therapist said. "I have some one who wants to see you Lucy." She said grabing the telephone on her desk and telling some one to enter. Few seconds and the door knocked. "Come in please."