Careless (completed)

Chapter 9 : The therapist

Lucy's pov

Do you ever get this bad feeling that you are afraid of who you are? That you hate yourself so much that you think you don't deserve anything?!

When I looked at the mirror I thought about who would ever try to love some one like this? I want to be perfect but i only have all the imperfectness of the whole world.

Mom and dad told me to change my clothes to go out. Luke is playing a football match with his mates. It's cold and I have to leave early in a holiday day!!

Where? would you ask...To a therapist...her name is Anica something. Like it even matters.

I was ready to go now. I let my hair fall and didn't put anything in it. I was still staring at the mirror and catching my phone.

"Come on!! please!! Call!!" I shouted at my phone

"Lucy? Are you ready to leave?" Mom shouted from downstaires.

"No!!" I lied. I was still waiting for him to call.

When I gave up I decided to get out of the room until my phone rang. My face expressions suddenly changed and I curiously looked at it.

"Hello??" I said wishing to hear the voice I'm waiting for. I closed my eyes.

"Lucy." It's him!!!

"Why didn't you call me??"

"I wanted to know how will you take care of your self with out me...And to be honest...you sucked!"

"I know i did...But right now mom and dad are taking me to a therapist."

"Good!"

"what????!"

"It's your chance to prove them wrong. Tell her every thing you've been keeping inside you. You need to talk to some one and explain your issues. And then she will tell your parents that you are alright and you don't need anything."

"But...what if she thought I was crazy too?"

"She won't! Please have some trust in your self!"

"ok...Thanks but...Please don't leave me."

"Don't worry...Now, go to your mom sweet pie."

I left the room and put my phone in my pocket.

We sat in the car and mom started lecturing me, saying things I didn't really care about. Like what to tell the doctor and not to worry...not to lie and alot of bla bla bla.

I just pretended to be hearing her and stared at the people outside the car window. I smiled at the way he talked to me today. I was comfortable that he won't leave me again.

We reached the hospital and we had to wait until it's our turn to enter. I saw really crazy persons outside...I wanna go home so bad! One was staring at the carpet and very surprised! Like he saw an ant wearing a jacket or something.

"hahahhah" I chuckled at the thought. Mom looked at me like I'm crazy.

"What???" She asked

"Nothing." I replied expressionless. She turned her face disgusted and I started smiling again at the silly people in here.

When it was time, I entered the room to find a woman maybe in her mid thirtys wearing a good looking glasses and sitting behind her desk.

She suddenly smiled which freaked me out. She had short blond hair and wore good formal classy clothes.

She first told me to go and sit outside so she can speek to my parents alone.