Careless (completed)

Chapter 16 : A chat from heaven

Lucy's pov

When you say you don't care mostly you don't mean it. Like me for example. I'm pretending to be completely alright while I'm fully broken down.

It rained while I was walking. It was midnight and scary. I didn't know where to go until I saw some thing. The light of the restaurant where I saw the boy who disappeared was turning off and on grabing my attention. Was it a sign?

This restaurant is empty most of the time. It's called Royal grill. Silver labeled and small.

I walked towards it and entered to find it empty as usual. I sat on a table and wore my sweater which I didn't have time to wear earlier.

Music playing at a low tune. But, I could easily recognise the song. Wake me up. One of my favs.

I looked at the menu and all I could think about was the pain caused by the earlier incident. Crazy was too much to take.

What have I done?

Sadness, hurt and alot of other mixed emotions were about to erupt. I saw the whole year from the very begining to the end. How things changed, how Sally and I became friends, how Justin said he loved me. How everything was in it's way to perfection.

I almost had it all. Yeah, Adele was right.

Sooner than it had to be, My tears were all over my face. I looked at the reflection on the glass which acted like a mirror. I saw how sad I was. How red my eyes were and nose. I only cried hoping for a way out of this.

"Excuse me?" Some one said. I slowly looked at him more worried that my tears were obvious.

"Yes." I said as I rubbed them.

"Are you okay?" He asked with concern. He wore the uniform. He worked here. Wait! It's him!

"Yeah...No. I'm not." I answered ready to open up with any one.

"Do you mind if I sat with you?"

"On this table?"

"Yeah."

"Of course...Didn't we meet before?" My voice was cracked. It's tune was full of hidden cries.

"Yeah, we did. When it was raining."

"I came here again...to see you. But, you weren't here."

He just nodded. I think I know what's happening. I'm imagining again. I don't know what's real and what's not any more. Is he even here?!

"Why were you crying?" He asked. "Oh! may I ask?"

"I'm crazy. And unhappy." I laughed bitterly.

"What?"

"It's just that...Everyone thinks I'm crazy and...I'm not sure if I'm not." I looked down. I didn't wanna see his face reaction now.

"Hey " He raised my chin forcing me to look at him. "Never let people's thoughts about you define who you are. You're so much better than anyone and you only have to believe in your self."

I stared at his green eyes. "So, they could be wrong, right?" I asked hopefully.

"They are wrong. I see you're not crazy. You're fun, beautiful and smart. You have a future right infront of you and you have dreams to make them come true. You only need hope. Hope in life."

I couldn't bare it any more. I cried again. "But, I think I'm paranoid and crazy. I see things that ain't real."

"How do you know they aren't? Don't doubt yourself. Have some trust in yourself."