Asylum | E.D

48

"Ethan, are you in love with me?"

Ethan

Jaylee stood in the middle of the motel room, holding the TV remote in her hands. There was two singular beds inches away from one another, up against the wall,l and the bathroom smelt as if he hadn't been cleaned in years.

"You're really quiet tonight." Jaylee mumbled, turning to face with me a guilty look on her face. "Are you mad at me or something?"

She seemed to have got the idea that I could possibly ever feel anything but love towards her. I could never be mad at somebody whose laugh alone caused the hairs on my arms to stand on end. 

Frowning, I shook my head. "Never." I smiled, assuring her that she was the last person on the planet who I could be mad at.

"You sure?" She raises an eyebrow, sitting down on the end of the bed I had claimed as mine, even though they were both disgusting as it is. 

"Positive." I confirmed, knowing there wasn't much she could possibly do that could anger me.

Glancing around the room, she pursed her lips together before dropping her gaze at me. "Can we build a fort?" She rose her eyebrows, hopeful that I would agree to such a childlike idea. 

"Fort?" I cocked an eyebrow, I didn't understand where we could possibly build a fort in such a small room. 

Jumping up she nodded at me eagerly. "Yup, and then...we can sleep in it." She exclaimed, her hands on her hips, as if she was telling me that we were building a fort and sleeping in it, rather than asking me whether or not I wanted to. 

And who was I to tell her no as she stood there with a pout on her face, resembling a puppy if one was to ever grow legs and short dark hair, eyes I could get lost in and not have to worry about finding my way out because I wanted to remain in a trance for the rest of my life. 

"Okay, but one condition." I sat up, a smirk tugging on my lips.

Jaylee rolled her eyes. "What would that be?" She questioned me.

I pulled out a blunt and a lighter, looking up at her.

Confusion crossed her face. "Remember when you told me we should do things that I had missed out as a teenager. Well, this is one of them."

"You want to get high?" She raised an eyebrow. "Where did you even get that?"

"Yes. And Grayson got it for me." I nodded, getting up from the bed. "But I want you to get high with me." I told her, tossing her a lighter from my pocket, pushing open the window seeing as though it was late and cold outside, we could simply blow the smoke through the gap and hope that there isn't a no smoking policy in place.

Jaylee

Blowing smoke out of the window, Ethan handed me the brown paper, rolled to perfection, joint, a glisten in his eyes as he nodded at me, beckoning me into getting high with him so that we could build a fort together.

"Can't you just like, blow the smoke into my face?" I mumbled, not knowing how to smoke a blunt, nor did I want to start any time soon. "Because I don't know ho–" 

He didn't even utter a word. He simply placed it back in-between his lips, a few seconds of silence lingering between us before he edged his face towards me, blowing the smoke out and onto my face, my cheeks instantly burning up from how close he was to me, his lips under an inch away from mine.

And I don't know what it was that overcome the sudden urge to kiss him, that replaced that urge with another urge, one that I didn't seem to be able to think through before words took up camp on my tongue for a matter of seconds without passing through my head first. 

"Do you love me?" I spluttered, feeling my heart stop as the words left my mouth.

Ethan visibly swallowed down an immediate lump in his throat, turning away from me as he put the stub of the joint out on the window sill, tossing out before forcing a cough.

"Um, well...I." He uttered, rubbing the back of his neck, it obvious that he was fighting the urge to start pacing or reacting to the nerves that I had suddenly inflicted upon his aura.

He slipped into a silence, his eyes glued to the floor, his will to speak some how evaporating into thin air, leaving us both in a state of nothingness.

I wanted answers. 

"Ethan, are you in love with me?"