It didn't surprise Changkyun getting selected as the most awkward person in the group; they all already knew it was him, as Hyungwon said. The youngest hated the idea of having a date with one of his members and the cameras attentive to his reactions during it. However, there was nothing he could do about it, and now he was to pretend not being hurt by the effort and whining of his band mates to not be chosen as Changkyun's date.
His relationship with the group was in general uncomfortable, only Kihyun was a bit close to him. So it didn't really matter who got to take a ride on the Ferris wheel with him, it would be as bad as a punishment for any of the members.
Changkyun got nervous under everybody's gaze, and he soon realized the two oldest members were acting nervous as well. Hell, they even looked upset as if they were expecting the rest of the guys to chose one of them for the horrible date. It was as if out of sixteen possible combinations Changkyun-Shownu and Changkyun-Wonho were the only two they could vote on.
Changkyun was mastering the art of concealing the damage his members attitudes and obvious discomfort caused on him. He was also controlling his true personality, knowing it may be too much for the rest.
With a tie between Wonho and Shownu, the decision was now on him. Changkyun didn't want to make any of the two feel uncomfortable at all, but it was part of the show and he had to keep the act going. Hyunwoo wasn't exactly awkward with him because he basically ignored the presence of the youngest, so even when Hoseok had the most awkward relationship with Changkyun, the rapper knew the situation would be easier to handle it he chose the leader. And so he did, especially after Hoseok's reaction when they pretended he had be chosen.
"My current boyfriend is Shownu and my next boyfriend will be Wonho." Despite the general atmosphere, Changkyun still managed to make the group laugh.
Their date began, and if Changkyun felt anxious before, it was only getting worse with the time passing. It wasn't until they were technically trapped inside the Ferris wheel booth that Changkyun dared to confront the eldest's evasive behavior.
"Are you feeling hurt by me at all?"
The eldest laughed running his hand through his hair. Changkyun forgot for a second about the cameras and looked at his hyung with seriousness.
"Not really, but I want something from you. I want to ask you something... You are too dark."
Changkyun held back any defensive comment forming in inside his head.
"I'm not talking about acting cute, I want you to be brighter and talk more."
Would the rest of the group wish he was brighter too? That was just how he was, and being that way was his main mechanism to cope alone with the changes and challenges that had been going on in his life.
"Just say it, just do it!" Hyunwoo hurried.
"Our team has a lot of opinions, so sometimes it gets to weird places. I want you to clean it up for us since you are the leader."
"You want me to speak up more. I'll try."
After the short yet deep conversation, they couldn't look at each other for a while and decided to take pictures until the ride was over.
They finally proved they were close by saying one another's name and forming a heart over their heads. That'd do for now, at least for the media, fans, and managers. Things at home, however, were probably going to turn stressful for the youngest. For sure their members would insist to know what happened up in the Ferris Wheel, and they would tease Changkyun until other awkward situation presented itself.
Being in front of cameras for things such as No.Mercy and Right Now meant they had do act. They overacted some situations and also held back certain true reactions.
Coming back to the dormitory after Right Now would hopefully be different this time. Changkyun really hoped their leader would be by his side even when the other five members were against him. He hoped Hyunwoo wouldn't ignore the tension and enemisty on the dorms daily atmosphere.
Was it too much to ask?
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Won't You Help Me Out
Fanfiction"I'm not talking about acting cute, Changkyun. I want you to be brighter and talk more."