Shouldn't Have Kissed You.

chapter 47

"Did you find her?" Kimberly asked the moment Chris stepped inside the house.

Chris placed the keys on the coffee table and rubbed his hands on his face. He was frustrated, scared, tired and hurt at the same time. This isn't what he had hoped it would end. Not in this manner anyway. That's why he had such emotions running through him.

And could you blame him anyway? It had been a week since Kimberly showed up at their door step. Yes, a week since he set his eyes on his wife or heard her voice. A week staying in the same house with Kimberly who kept on asking the same question every time he stepped inside his mansion.

That was why he was frustrated with everything. That he could breath when he had no idea if his wife was still breathing. She had left that same night that Kimberly walked in and thinking of that scared him a whole other new level...

"Chris for crying out loud will you keep on being quite?" He didn't bother to look at her. "It's been a freaking one week and you've not said a word to me. Not even."

Chris walked past her and towards the stairs. He needed shower and change of clothes before he stepped out again. That's how he served. He had looked every where that one could look. Hell, he had visited hospital and police stations just to make sure but nothing.

His wife didn't want to be found. She didn't want to see his face but he did. He needed Maya besides him. He needed her to fight his ghost and everything but its like the world had swallowed her alive. Because what else would explain her disappears. Chris let his shirt fall down before he was turned around forcefully.

"Do you think that this will solve anything?" Kimberly asked looking him straight in the eye.

Chris looked away from her. He didn't want to argue with her. In fact he didn't want to talk to her and he had survived for a good one week. He had but it seems like he did not learn very well from his teach. Chris could count how many times he wanted to talk to Kimberly. How he wanted to let her see his frustration and it was more than he preferred to keep quite.

How his wife could pull through with silent treatment was beyond him still.

"What do you want me to say?" He did not mean to shout but he did anyway. Chris watched Kimberly coil away from fear and for a second he did feel sorry for her. For a second. "A thank you ugh?  Ooh thank you so much Kimberly, thank you. Because of you I'm leaving my dream life. I am so happy that you forced yourself in me. Thank you."

Chris watched as Kimberly wipe away her tears. They could be fake for all he knew. The Kimberly that he had once grown to love didn't cry. In fact she feared nothing and she would have whatever she wanted and it didn't matter who she hurt. It has never anyway, not  now nor tomorrow nor forever. 

That was the Kimberly that he knew. So her fake tears, her fake tears weren't going to work on him. They weren't going to make him forget what she did to him. To his marriage, perfect life with his wife and his life. She hurt him beyond repair but Maya had made the demons and the trauma in a way go away.

"You'll never forgive me, will you?" She asked wiping away her tears.

He didn't know that. He thought he could with Maya besides him but now, now he had no idea of what to think any more. They say time heals all wounds but there some that can't be healed by time. Time doesn't help you forget. It never does because every time you see the scar, you'll remember. You will feel the pain all over again but you won't do anything to stop it. Because you can't undo what's already done. Once the damage is done, its done and his was already done.

"Chris, I loved you and I still you." She still had her crocodile tears on her. "I was afraid of loosing you and can you blame me?" She moved away from him looking every where but not him. "You love Maya now and I wanted to have a clause with you. That's why I did what I did but you cant keep punishing me for that mistake. I mean, its been over four months now."