The Mating Rights

Chapter 21

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Taya's POV

  "I'm not ready for a relationship Jesse. My reaction to this has showed me that. So no matter what you say, we can't be a thing anymore", I tell him trying to get him to leave before he can convince me to stay with him.

   "You are ready for a relationship and we are still together. You are mine and I know it, Jasmine knows it, everyone knows it except for you it seems", he tells me in a very soft and soothing voice.

   "I know that I'm yours, that has never been a question. It's always been whether you're mine and you're not mine. You're community property and I can't fucking stand it", I tell him quietly.

   "Please watch your mouth. Baby, I've been yours from day one. Why do you think Jasmine tried so hard to make you uncomfortable? She knows that you have me wrapped up in knots. I can barely think of anyone or anything but you. Jasmine has never tried to get rid of a girl that I've slept with. She's never told them anything because she knew they weren't important. You though? You're everything and that's why she's trying to make you leave me cause she knows I'd never leave you", he says passionately.

   "Jesse- I...I just can't be hurt again. You don't know how badly that felt. I can't do it", I say with tears in my eyes.

   "It only hurts so bad because you're assuming the worst. Me and Jasmine were never a couple. We had occasional sex but I've never loved her I've never wanted her. Shit, I've never even kissed her we just fucked. I've never made love to her like I want to with you. I've never felt anything for her, she was just there and I took what she offered but it meant nothing then and it means even less now. I promise you that I have not touched her since I saw you that first day in the bookstore", he tells me. 

   I can feel my heart softening and it scares me. I would be lying if I said that his admission didn't make me feel better, but I don't know if that was enough to forget everything and get back together. 

   He puts his hands on both sides of my face and I stand there with my arms by my side willing myself not to touch him back. I blink and tears cascade down my cheeks and he wipes them away with his thumbs. 

   "I can't breathe without you Taya. I've never felt this way about anybody in my life. I love-", he starts. 

   "Don't! Please don't say it", I cut him off. 

   "I love you and I fucking mean it. I'm not gonna pretend otherwise so that you can hold on to this anger. For what? I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life taking care of you and you can barley even look at me. But I'm not going to stop because you're worth it. Our love? It's worth it and I'm going to fight for you until I take my last breath", he says then he kisses me. 

   And God! What a kiss. My lips melt against his and I taste tears on our tongues. I feel my resolve dissipate and I'm his all over again. I grab his collar and kiss him like I'm starved. It's hungry but still soft and sweet. He kisses me deeply and runs his hands through my wet hair. We continue like this for a few minutes until he pulls away breathing heavily. 

   He pants, "babygirl please come back with me. I'm going crazy without you. I promise you if you ask me anything I will tell you the truth. No half truths or beating around the bush, just the full truth. I'll do anything you want. Anything to make you more comfortable, just please don't leave me. These last four days have been the hardest of my life. Please, I love you just please come home".

   I know this man and I know he wouldn't cheat on me. My heart is thumping in my chest and I don't know what the right decision is but I say, "okay Jess". 

   He smiles and it's heartbreaking in a good way. He pecks my lips and picks me up hugging me to his chest. 

   "I. Love. You", he says punctuating each word with a kiss. I look at him and know that I love him too but I'm feeling to vulnerable as it is. I open my mind to him and let him feel what I feel for him. 

   "I don't deserve you. You're truly perfect baby", he tells me. I smile and shake my head at him. 

   "Can you put me down please", I ask wanting to put on some real clothes. 

   "Nope, I haven't held you in days and I don't fancy letting you go anytime soon", he tells me. 

   "But you said you'd do anything I wanted", I smile down at him.

   He huffs and puts me down, "fine, okay but get your stuff I can't stand not being with you another night". He looks at me in the mirror of my bedroom dresser while I change, "you know I slept outside of your room just on the ground the past three days"?

   I look at him crazily and gasp, "you absolutely did not". 

   "I absolutely did", he says back losing his smile as he watches me change," You've lost weight babygirl". 

   I look sheepishly behind me, "I haven't had much of an appetite".

   He looks sad, "I'm so sorry I did this to you. We're gonna fatten you up okay? Anything you want to eat we're eating".

   He is sitting on the edge of my bed and I go to kiss him once my camisole and sleeping shorts are on. I kiss him and he grabs my thighs so that I'm forced to straddle him. I sigh, "it wasn't all on you. I should have heard you out before leaving. It was just hard. I'm sorry too". 

   "Don't apologize the problem started with me. Are you ready?", he stands from the edge of the bed and I drop my legs from his hips reaching for the ground and of course he doesn't put me down. 

   "I'm so glad you said yes, I thought I was going to have to kidnap you again", he told me smiling. 

   I gasp and say, "you wouldn't".

   He puts me down and takes a little vial out of his back pocket and a towel to show to me then winks and walks towards the door putting the stuff back in his pocket. 

   I stare at him wide eyed, "where are you going"?

   "Well since I don't have to kidnap you this time I figured we should let your aunt and uncle know that we're leaving", he says walking down the hall. 

   I laugh at him and follow him. Here goes nothing.