Trust- (s.m)

22

I was finally going to be discharged today from the hospital. We were still in Ohio and I couldn't travel just yet so we were staying in a hotel, our suitcase was brought from my house and given to us by the police.

In a week or so we were going to be going back to New York and honestly I couldn't wait to leave Ohio, full of horrible memories that was haunting.

Shawn was the best boyfriend I could ever ask for, he stayed with me everyday and once I was better he was allowed to stay in my bed. Well only because I forced him to otherwise I threatened to leave the room, so everyone gave into what I said.

"I can't wait to get out of this hospital" I say and Shawn smiles.

"I can't wait to leave too, I hate seeing you in this bed" he frowns and I poked his cheek as he stood beside my bed.

Don has been such an amazing friend staying by us but after staying with us and watching over us for two days, he had to head back to New York to prepare for his wedding which was in a month.

"The first thing I need is a bubble bath because my muscles are so tense" I say and Shawn nodded.

"You can have a bubbled bath and I'll give you massage too" he says and I smiled.

"You're the best" I say as I head his hand and he leaned down to kiss me.

"Sit me up" I say and he nodded as he slowly lifted me up and I swung my legs over the side of the hospital bed.

"Be careful" he says and I laughed.

"I'm fine Shawn" I say but he still held me tightly.

The door opened with the nurse coming in with a tray. She placed it down and put on her latex blue gloves, "How are you feeling?" She asks.

"I'm good" I smiled.

"I'm here to change your dressings and take out your IV before you can leave" she says and I nodded. She took out the IV and changed all of my dressings carefully. I thanked her as she left the room and told me I could change out of my hospital gown.

Shawn helped me change into some sweatpants and one of his big hoodies. Shawn helped tie my hair up into a pony.

The the door opened with doctor walking in, he walked in with the report in his hands. "How are you doing today Miss Garcia?" He asks.

"I'm feeling alright, I can't wait to be discharged" I say and he smiled.

"Well I have your report here. You obviously have had a severe wound to your ribs. You have two stitches there which will dissolve over time, and I have prescribed all the medication which you will need to take over the course of a month" he explains and I nodded.

"Thank you" I say and he nodded.

"Also Miss Garcia, I'm terribly sorry but you also suffered a miscarriage" he says and for a second my whole body froze unable to process the words coming out of his mouth.

"A What?" I croaked out.

"You've suffered a miscarriage, Due to the circumstances your body was in the day you were admitted into hospital. The stress had a very strong effect on the baby. Your body didn't respond to it very well which caused you to pass out from the relapse and effectively loose the foetus" he explains and lump formed in my throat.

A miscarriage. I was pregnant and I didn't even know.

I looked up Shawn who had a tear in his eye as he held me tightly. "Shawn- please tell me he's lying?" I asked as my voice cracked.

"We're going to be alright" Shawn says as he kissed my head.

"No! He's lying! Tell me he lying" I yelled as tears sprawled out of my eyes.

"This is not true! He lying!" I screamed as Shawn tried holding me.

"No this not real" I yelled in pain.

"I'm sorry Valery" Shawn whispered as he hugged me tightly.

"This is not true- he's lying" I say as I hysterically cried into Shawn's chest. My sobs became loud and Shawn tried calming me down which was working.

A precious life that was growing inside me was now gone.

A baby, a piece of Shawn and I together.

Our very own baby that inside of me that we lost.

Suddenly, everything felt like it had crashed. My heart feeling heavy and hurting so much.

Having a miscarriage is inevitable but I had never imagined myself going through this terrible feeling.

This hurt so much.

Shawn was quietly crying too which hurt me more as he held me tightly. "Everything's going to be okay" he says as he brushed his fingers through my hair.

I wiped my eyes as I stood up and took a few deep breaths. Shawn held me still as I tried to hold myself together.

"I'm so sorry" The doctor says as he placed a small ultrasound picture in my hand.

As I looked at it my heart shattered completely, I could hear the sound of my heart breaking completely. My hands slightly shaking as I stared at the picture, my tears falling as I looked at the picture.

The small baby only the size of seed was already so precious. My heartaches seeing this picture in my hands.

"I'll give you sometime but your car is waiting downstairs for you" He says before leaving the room.

I stared up at Shawn and he pulled me into him and I just cried. Tears spilling out to my hearts content in agony and pain.

"It's all my fault" I cried.

"It's not your fault, please don't say that" Shawn shushed me.

"It's my fault" I cried helplessly.

"No it's not. Stop blaming yourself Valery, we didn't know okay. There's nothing we can do now except be strong" he says as he shushed me.

"They killed our baby! They killed it!" I screamed and Shawn shushed me.

Ava and Luciano killed our baby.

"I love you Valery, please don't cry anymore" Shawn says kissing my forehead.

"I can't-"

"You are strong. You're the strongest woman I know Valery, you can do this" Shawn says and he wiped my eyes.

"Shall we go now?" He asks and I nodded.

Shawn and I both walked out of the room, tears spilling down my cheeks and people looking at us sympathy. The nurses handed Shawn my prescription and Shawn thanked them before we made our way out of the hospital.

Tears still streaming down my cheeks as Shawn held my hand tightly and helped me get into the car.

I had a heavy and indescribable feeling in my heart and it hurt a lot...