"I'm so scared to fall in love,
but if it's you, then I'll try"
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yoongi had been hurt before. he'd trusted many lies from the wrong women. "men are trash" they had said, "men keep lying"
yoongi doesn't understand where did he go wrong in his pass relationship. he is the man, one in a million, a keeper. he fought for everything yet always lose behind. he was left alone, the only thing that accompanied him is his own self pity and loneliness. all these girls he'd met makes him more afraid to fall in love. he is afraid to try again. what if it's true when they said all girls are the same ?
so he left all his love history behind and focus on his work. started from the bottom now he's on top of the mountain. he starts making music and people love it, people love him.
all the songs he made, he has no idea that people are sharing the same experience as him. all the songs about the memories he had with his pass girlfriend. he admit, it hurts him to write, to sing it. he wanted to tell her that he still wants her, he still waited for her. he cannot reach her so the only thing that can help him is through the song. he promised himself to make it on top charts so that it will play on the radio, so that she can listen to his heart through the song.
on one fated day when he was requested to do some interview on radio channel, yoongi did not expect to meet a girl that he thought could change his perspective on girls again. she is a bright girl, with wide smile and captivating eyes. the eyes that caught his own.
"so tell us yoongi, what inspired you to write such hurtful yet amazing lyrics ?" she asks, looking at him to wait for his answer. he clears his throat, realising that he might had stared for too long. "i don't know." he said, "maybe because of the society. as i witness, so many people are suffering by broken heart and love issues." he answers. looking at the girl with emptiness in his eyes.
she lets out a small awkward chuckles, "well, that's creative. so you wanted to tell people that they aren't the only one that has been hurt ?" yoongi nods with a soft hum. the girl paused the session, playing a song so they could take a break.
yoongi take a moment to sip on his water before hoseok, his one and only friend, come for a small talk. "you're good ?" hoseok asks the older male, worried wash over his face. "i'm fine." he answers.
yoongi is introverts, hoseok knows it too well. he don't talk much, to be correct, he only talk when necessary. "look, we're on radio broadcast. can you talk more ?" the younger requests. he sighs when yoongi only nods, "show the effort that you want to be here. you want your voice to be heard right ? here is your chance." with that, he left with a paper script for yoongi. maybe a little idea for him to give more answers.
"it's still me ! your one and only beautiful dj, son wendy." she did that again. it attack yoongi's heart in many angles. the excited hand gestures and a big, eye-catching smile. he swears he saw the sparks in her eyes. "and here with me is still the same yoongi." she looks at him, nodding for yoongi to greet the listeners. he wishes a simple goodnight and try to greet with the same smile she had.
"back to questions and answers, what is behind the lyrics you wrote ?" her eyes focused on the papers on the table, scanning the questions one by one as she speaks to him. "a messages." yoongi has a sharp gaze on the mic. his mind wonders off when he speaks, "to tell the person that i still want her, to tell her that i've forgave what she did to me. i want her to know that i will still wait for her with open arms."
for a moment, it was silent in the room. wendy was left speechless for a while. she takes a deep breath before continue. but before she could say more, yoongi cuts her off with an apology. "i'm sorry. i was still talking about the society. i want the people who left to know that someone still wants them." he offers a small smile for her which she takes it happily, returning with her own. "i understand."
the interview continues with wendy asking about his life, his hobbies and such. yoongi may have make it looks like they're talking to each other only without other people. he didn't realise his shyness had entertained people in the room, and also those whose listening. he keep asking back the questions to wendy because he don't know what to say. hoseok had told him to talk often or he will cancel the pizza he's ordering. he ain't cutting his dishes no more.
after the end of their session, they break it with wendy playing few requested songs. "when will you finish working ?" yoongi had asks before leaving the room with hoseok. wendy looks at him, a bit surprise as she answers, "not until 9." the man nods, offering one shy smile and left her. wendy swears that was the first time she saw him smiling from his heart, it looked sincere.
when the clock hits 9, wendy wraps her work with a moonlight by ali gatie. she pack her things and thanks all the staffs for their hard works. when she exited the building, she did not expect to see yoongi leaning his back on his car, looking down at his feet with hands in the pocket. he is wearing a baseball cap covering half of his face, sky-blue shirt with top buttons undone and shorts. to done his outfit, a pair of high-cut sneakers on his feet.
"waiting for someone ?" she asks after approaching the man. yoongi was startled by her sudden voice. he clears his throat and stands straight, hands still in his pocket. "yeah well, i was waiting for you." he asnwers shyly, left hand making its on his nape. "m-me ? wha- what? i mean.. why ?" her cheeks were covered with red blush as her inside heated.
yoongi stays silent for a moment, looking at the hard ground as if there are answers to her question. why is he here in the first place ? he doesn't really know why. he's just here, after leaving his apartment at 8:40.
"did i bother you ?" he asks back instead. the later shakes her head almost immediately, "you didn't." again, they were swallowed by silence and awkwardness. wendy take the signal for her to start talking first but then again, he interrupts her mid-sentence. "shall we go for a dinner ?" wendy smiles encouragingly, "chinese sounds yummy."
they ended up at McDonald's parking lot eating noodles from Taiwanese restaurant. the whole ride wasn't too silent nor too loud. it's mostly wendy who attempts on asking questions. yoongi wanted to say something too, but the conversations always end after the girl answers his questions.
"i'm still wondering why you'd waited for me finish working." wendy mutters underneath her breath, looking at yoongi as she waits for his answers. the man shrugs, "i just think i would be nice to not eating alone." he excuses. "hoseok had a date with his girlfriend. holly won't talk to me because i left her uneaten." he ends his sentence with a little chuckles. "holly ?"
"my dog. my one and only friend after hoseok."
wendy widened her eyes with excitement, "i love dogs !" she exclaimed. "but yerim won't let me pet one. she's allergic to fur." the pouted she had on her lips had unconsciously cause yoongi's heart flipping. he smiles, "you want to meet holly ?" he asks, putting down his empty takeaway box and wipes away the food stains on his lips. wendy looks at him, he swears he saw sparkles in her eyes, "can i ?" she asks back.
"i mean, holly hasn't went outing for a while." he whispers softly. wendy nods, "when will it be ? the sooner the better." she grins shyly, showing two row of her shining white teeth. "i don't mind. when is your free time ?" the girl hums softly, thinking about her schedule as a radio DJ. "this saturday ? i have free time the whole day." the latter nods, agreeing.
few days had passed since the day yoongi brought wendy to meet holly. they went to many places with the pub and wendy swears that was the best day of her life. these pass few days, yoongi always showed unexpectedly at her workplace when she got home.
