it took me too long
to compose myself
and to write you
a reasonable poem.
to tell you
that I hope paradise
is as sunny as you
had imagined it.
or maybe paradise
in your mind
was a place
of your childhood,
which doesn't exist anymore.
paradise was the escape you'll
never get.
you will live your entire life
sitting right where you are,
in that exact house,
in that exact town,
underneath the same
sky I'm under.
you are here
and so am I.
you never apologized
for the things you did to me.
I was deprived of all the
little things, that you
were too vain to give me.
overtaken by pride in yourself
to give anything to me.
to reassure me you loved me,
to want to be with me.
I've been pushed aside
my whole life,
by people who
were not good or genuine,
so I understand this world,
but I could never understand
you or your mindset.
it's like you were
always somewhere else.
and as much as I miss you,
and as much as I wish you
would have loved me,
I hope you find your
paradise one day.
june 28th, 2019
YOU ARE READING
𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐧
Poesia『for the one who made me cry so hard that I remembered I was human』 just another set of poetry :) sit back and enjoy it💛 (I changed the title because I needed something new 🌙)
