Behind Closed Doors / New Edit

Chapter 18 / Update

I'm a big ass 6months pregnant now I'm a walking balloon 3 more months to go and I can't wait ! My feet swollen my back hurt I can't keep nothing down I gotta eat honey with every fuckin thing ! Sitting in this doctor office with Jay waiting to get called in the back for both of our ultrasounds is exhausting the seats are uncomfortable like hell ! I just wanna know what I'm having I don't want a boy God if you love me you won't give me a boy I prayed waiting for my name to call , Ms.Makila Taylor coming I said struggling to get out the chair Jay laughed as if she didn't have the same problems I wish midnight was here to help me Jay rolled her eyes girl fuck that nigga you don't need him we got this making my way on to the ultrasound table with my fingers double crossed that this baby got his/her legs open this time so I can find out what I'm having and start my shopping drifting into lala land as she put the warm jelly on my stomach here goes nothing fingers crossed fingers crossed please be a girl please be a girl she said it ITS A GIRL ! yes ! Thank God can I get my pictures please thank you ... The tech look at Jay and asked her if she was ready Jay didn't seem to happy and under her circumstances I understood who wanna have they first baby alone ? All by there self with no help ? Niggas was cold hearted she had 1 ex who would come by and check on her drop money off and food but after cursing him out like a dog he stopped she had nobody who would make it to appointments with her
besides me are one of our moms , midnight would come with me but only if Jay wasn't coming they couldn't stand each other deep in my thoughts I hear the tech say ITS A GIRL she still didn't seem happy the tech tried to make her smile Ms.Makila what are you gonna name baby girl ? after my favorite jewelry store Tiffany I said with the biggest smile , she then asked Jay what are you gonna name your bundle ? She said Brittany , on our way out she said she had to use the restroom while waiting for her the assistant nurse told me sometimes stuff be rite infront our face that we don't wanna see , not all the time situations are what people make them to be and people aren't who we think they are when she heard the toilet flush she walked off I didn't know why she was telling me that I don't think I knew her outside of the office maybe she was trippin are maybe I needed to open my fuckin eyes to what she was trying to tell me idk and i didn't care i was just happy I was having my baby girl and nothing was gonna take this happiness away from me ! Nothing