Hello luv... A Harry Potter Fan Fiction

chpt 17

Luckily the ground that I landed on far below was soft from the rain and my stronger muscles took the impact with ease. I began at a run for the forest, my eyes still wet from tears, stung as the wind lashed around me, it seemed closer and I was soon under the cover of the trees. I stopped in a large clearing and fell to the ground, just lying there looking up at the stars.  I couldn't stay in the forest, I was unsafe and if I wasn't found by Hagrid then I would eventually be found by someone, or something else. "Why do you do this? You know where to go. Come home, come to me." I hissed out loud,

"I will not love you!" I struck the tree with my fist in rage and to my surprise it stopped half way through. I was beginning to calm down. "But look at yourself, even your body knows what you really want, give in Robyn, come home." Voldemort's voice hissed goadingly in my mind. "And where is home?!" I had meant to think it but I ended up screaming it instead, I could feel his imposing will and almost directed my body towards where I knew he was.

"You told me that home was with the person you love." I span so quickly that I barely had time to notice who I was about to punch in the face. Standing there, well sitting there in front of me was a black-as-night dog, its ears were drooping down and I could swear that it looked sad. That he looked sad. "Sirius?" I asked in disbelief. The dog barked and padded away. I felt the need to follow it so I clambered along the forest path behind it. The problem with Sirius when he was in this form, was that I couldn't tell whether or not it was him, it hid him so completely that I could never be sure, so I just had to go on gut instinct. We got to the Whomping Willow and it was about then I knew my gut was right. "Sirius please I need to talk to you, and not like this."  He growled at me and kept walking, I didn't think he was angry, it was more of a-be patient-kind of growl.  I smiled; it felt weird having so many emotions in such a short time, it felt almost exhausting, was I going through Nosferatu puberty or something? We both moved silently up to the tree, for some reason it was frozen like a statue and we reached the secret passage at the base with ease. After that it took only seconds to get through the passage and enter the Shrieking Shack. Sirius suddenly stopped, his body began to grow and the shape of the black dog gradually faded until all that was left was a man. He turned to face me and his eyes were filled with tears. "I never thought ..." He didn't get to finish the sentence because I kissed him, it wasn't the most graceful kiss ever but neither of us cared. We finally parted and he pulled me down into a chair. We sat in silence for an hour just staring into each other's eyes, being on the run had worn him down but he still looked better than he had when in Azkaban. I thought about the months where we sat in our separate cells communicating mentally. He pulled me into a hug and stroked my hair tenderly, when I had been sent to Azkaban I had thought that my life was over and that I would never know love, but I had found Sirius six years after my initial sentence. "We need to talk." I whispered while still in his embrace, I could picture him smiling as I felt the muscles in his cheeks tighten against my forehead. "You want to know why I'm here." I too smiled, it amazed me how well he knew me.

"No I already know what you were looking for. Otherwise you wouldn't have broken into the castle, but why are you still here? I don't want you to be put back into a cell." He pulled away and his brow creased.

"I'm sorry for that night but I heard that you were there only minutes after I initially broke in, I had to come back and see if it was true." I looked down, embarrassed by his affection, he moved my hair as it fell over my face and I looked back up, "But then I saw you and I couldn't let Snape look at you like that, it just made me... angry." He frowned, "and then you ended up changing because of me, sorry." Of course I had forgiven him, but he was always very hard on himself.

"Sirius," this time it was my turn to push his hair out of the way as I lifted his head gently, "I was never angry at you." I smiled and he followed by smiling as well.

"I found Peter." He announced and my face dropped, Peter Pettigrew was the reason Sirius had been put into Azkaban in the first place- when he had betrayed Lilly and James- Harry's parents to Voldemort- Sirius had been blamed with Pettigrew's murder. “And you were planning on just breaking in and murdering him?”

“He's in the castle posing as some poor students' pet rat. I've seen him going into the Gryffindor commons that's why I tried to get in; I knew that if I caught him I could put an end to his miserable life and avenge Lilly and James." A very serious look came across his face and I understood that he was in pain. "You'll find him, I know you will." I stood then to look between the boards covering the windows, trying to find out what time it was. It was dark outside and I was glad that it wasn't a full moon because this room could have been occupied by a very angry werewolf. Lupin, I couldn't help wondering whether I would ever speak with him again, he obviously no longer wished to talk with me. "You're thinking about Remus," he always seemed to know what I was thinking. Sirius placed a hand tenderly on my shoulder, "I was thinking of how to get him to forgive me."  He turned me around.

"What happened?" He demanded.

I tried to smile it off but I could barely move my mouth. "He found out about the betrothal thing, and not the way I wanted to tell him about it." He nodded and crossed his arms.

"I think you should just wait," he finally said. "If I know Mooney then he will come to terms with it and he'll forgive you." He put his arm around my shoulders and squeezed me tight. "Just don't let it bother you too much."

I snorted, "I wasn't planning on going back," I told him, "I was going to stay with you." I kissed him on the lips and rested against him, he moved away. "I know this is unfair but I need you to go back for me, I need you to watch out for Harry." He looked down at me and I saw the anguish he felt at our separation. He was about to speak when I kissed him again. "Tomorrow." I said, smiling. He smiled back.