Jokes are always told
By the young and the old
It's meant to be funny
But why am I never happy?
Laughter ensues for awhile
But why can't I ever smile
These jokes I always tell
About how hard I fell
My words don't mean anything
It doesn't amount to a single thing
My jokes are for your entertainment
It's to make you laugh, isn't it?
My own words of self hate
To take them back, it's too late
It cuts not the surface nor the mind
Cause I never seem to find
Anything about me that's one of a kind
I laugh and drown out the noise
The noise of the pain I hid
Ever since I was a kid
My problems that no one needs to hear
All comes out as a joke for those near
It's just a joke right
It's quite a sight
This thing that looms over my mind
Caught my heart in a bind
Now I can't find a way
Amidst all the noise I have no say
I have no right to talk
So I spend time alone for a walk
My minds gets clear
But I can never get near
Never approaching my one single
Fear...
