The day's been getting colder and colder
While I cover myself and gaze at the yonder
It's hard to see what's happening now
But I still ask myself how
How do I keep going
To have hope and stop sewing..
Sewing my black heart
The pain keeps tearing it apart
If I stop, HE will come out
He will take over and shout
"I WILL NEVER LET YOU OUT"
It's been a long time since he sprouted
Since childhood He amounted
Amounted to be better
To him I was just a small critter
So I have to keep him in
Both my feelings and in between
I got no other choice
So I sealed away my voice
For years it's been this way
All I can do is stay
All this just for me to stray away
It's too much, I've lost my way..
I might be holding it in for too long
I just don't know anymore
Where do I belong
How can I stay strong
I wonder if I was ever wrong
While I listen to some songs
As the seasons keep changing
Will my resolve be everlasting?
I can't keep this up forever
This game of "now or never"
Eventually lose my will
Then I will never feel
What's the point of my emotion
If it does nothing for my situation
I decided to leave my heart
With my mind going rampart
This is dangerous, I know
But it's the reason I am hollow
This empty heart of a useless fellow
All I feel is sorrow whilst I wait for tomorrow...
I tread this lonesome path
Away from all of their wrath
Isn't it funny
It's ironic, actually...
A person who always smiles
Makes your day seem worthwhile
When hearing their cries
Nobody even tries
Not one person tried to ask
Is it that such hard of a task?
Just one word is enough
Will I continue acting tough?
My mind can only take so much
Thinking of dark places
As I go through such phases
When will someone see the broken vases
I might not hold out
Please stay out
I can't stay the same
In the end, nobody came
I only have myself to trust
Nobody but "us"
I can't help but list
All the moments I miss
Now I sit
In the corner of my mind, darkly lit
I can't ever throw a fit
For I was born not to hit
I advise others on what they should do
But even I can't do it too
I like to help others
Yet myself I left altogether
I'm a hypocrite
So let me take the hit
It's all I was good for
Shaken to the core
I never really did much
So put my flame out
With but a single touch
Leave me as such..
I'll be hanging around by the trees
Like the leaves staying with ease
Where I will cease
To exist~
:>
