fallen angel (syd barrett x reader)

dinner

November

mom called me down to set the table. I got into my fancy clothes that my parents forced me to wear. "It's only for one night" they said. But I hated the outfit. I didn't feel right in it. I went back up to my room until the guests came.

"Why the fancy clothes, (yn)?" Syd asked me.

I sighed. "Tonight's thanksgiving and mom's making me dress all "presentable"" I explained with a scoff. Mom knew that nothing I did was ever "presentable".

"Oh, it can't be that bad. Plus I think it looks really good on you. I mean, everything looks good on you" syd said

"Thanks, syd" I said and blushed. Tears were in both of our eyes as we couldn't help but be reminded that soon we would have to be seperated. I approached him for a hug. We he wrapped his arms around me tightly for a good twenty seconds. Being close to him felt so warm, so safe.

"(Yn)! Time for dinner!" My mom called from downstairs.

I went and sat down quietly and saw that syd was watching from the top of the stairs. I smiled at him. My family members all looked at me like I was crazy, but then brushed it off as me just being in la-la land as they usually observed me to be.

"How's school going for ya?" My grandpa asked me.

"Do adults ever talk about anything other than school?" I snapped at no one in particular.

"That's no way to talk to your grandpa" my dad scolded. I scoffed.

"(Yn), please show respect" my mom said.

"When was the last time anyone respected me?" I said. "If yall would just talk to me like a normal human being I'd actually say what's going on in my life."

"But you're not a normal human being, you're a freak" said my cousin rachel. I glared at her.

"Fuck you" I said. "Fuck all of you. Fuck. You."

"DON'T YOU DARE SPEAK TO RACHEL THAT WAY YOU VULGAR CHILD" said my aunt furiously.

"I'M NOT VULGAR AND I'M NOT A CHILD. I'M A HUMAN BEING AND I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING!!" I yelled.

I got up and stormed to my room before anyone could protest my leaving. It's not like they would be happy to keep me at the table.

I threw my face into my pillow and screamed. This happened every year. I was sick of it, and on top of that the person I needed most was leaving soon.

I sat on my bedroom floor with my back against the wall and cried. I wish I'd never said those things. My whole family must think I'm out of control. I've always been put of control. Why am I so out of control? In that moment I had gone back to hating myself, hating life, hating my family, and wanting to die.

Syd sat down next to me and put his arm around me. "I'm sorry" was all he said.

"I just... I just wanna die" I said. "No one loves me. I just wanna be with you" I said to him.

"Please don't die. Please." Syd begged.

"But why?" I asked. "It's not like I have anything to live for"

"It's think it's time I told you why I became a fallen angel." Syd said.

"Why?" I said.

"You remember how I said made mistakes as an angel?" He asked.

"Yah" I said.

"Well, my mistake was killing somone to save you. Angels aren't allowed to kill people. But I couldn't bear to see you die at such a young age" he said.

"I... I don't understand" I said. "You've always been my guardian angel?"

"Mhm" syd said and hugged me tight. "And I'll do anything to protect you. So promise me you won't hurt yourself, or commit suicide" he begged me.

"Is promise" I said.

"Good" he said and kissed my cheek. I leaned on his shoulder and again felt his hair against my face. I couldn't believe he was leaving so soon. I didn't know what I would do without him.