[Tin x Can] If Only I Could Trust

Chapter 5: Part 1

I still had a smile on my face when I entered my home. I touched my lip absentmindedly remembering what I just did with Can in the car. I don't think I could ever get it out of my memory from here on out. Nothing about him could I forget. I happened to like his honest and blunt rudeness.

Hanging up my jacket, I headed up to my room. I wanted to get inside before Tul came home. It's not that I was afraid of him that much, but he did have a few screws missing in that sick head of his. I mostly didn't feel like dealing with his dramatics or trying to figure out what he would try to do next.

I fished my keys out of my pocket, ready to open my bedroom door, but I froze on the spot. There stood no other than my brother Tul. He was home earlier than I expected. The smile fell from my face and I proceeded to unlock my door.

'No matter what I do, you are this happy huh?' He spoke in an angry manner.

I tried to shut the door quickly behind me but I wasn't fast enough. Tul's foot was wedged there and that gave him enough space to push himself in. My fists balled at my sides. I'm really starting to get tired of his shit.

'Go.' I warned.

He chuckled at me sadistically.

'I just wanted to make you privy to some information. I want to show our father but we will see what you think about it first.'

I scoffed at him and told him to leave again. I didn't like to be in any room with him alone or otherwise. Taking out his phone he proceeded to play a video. I didn't have time for this. After a few seconds I started to acknowledge what I was hearing sounded like Can. I walked closer and snatched the phone from him. It was a very clear video of Can and I kissing in the kitchen followed by us nearly having sex in my room.

'How the hell did you get this?' I roared very angry.

'What I really should be asking you Tin is why do you think it's okay to cheat on me? I let you have your fun with numerous girls, but guys?' He laughed eerily. 'The only guy who should have you is me!'

'First of all I'm no one's.' No one but Can's, I thought. 'Second of all I deleted it!'

'Why? It's been my late night entertainment. Even though I'm jealous it's a nice bit of clothed porn.' My hands tightened even more with extreme anguish. 'Besides, if he likes you, maybe he'll like me. I'm more experienced, older, though my dick isn't as big as yours it never fails to please. Well of course, you know all this already.'

'If you hurt Can, I'll kill you.' I growled low.

'Or you can give yourself to me. Besides, I have more than one copy of that.' His laughter echoed in the room before he left out the way he came in.

Later on at night I received a message from Can. My hands were shaking for some reason. I tried to calm them as I clicked on his message. I couldn't help feeling a sense of dread as I read his message. I was afraid, so fucking afraid, that Tul had sent him that video.

After leaving the house and rushing to where Can told me to come, I sat in the car a minute. My heart was racing and my eyes were starting to tear up. I hated crying but I couldn't lose Can after I finally found someone that I really like and who I genuinely think they liked me. If Tul ruined this for me, I'll really kill him!

With a huge sigh, I covered my face with no emotions and I walked out the car and across the park to where Can sat on the swing looking dejected. I stood there a minute before he even acknowledge my presence. His head whipped up and I could tell he had been crying a lot. Tears still streaked his face and his eyes were reddened.

Without a word he handed me his phone. It was open to a screenshot of a conversation between Tul and I. A conversation that we never had. He had to have used an app to make this up. Tul hadn't sent the videos so I'm guessing that he had other things up his sleeve.

'How is this possible? I was a game for you and him Tin?'

I wanted to say something but my throat wouldn't work. I thought he would trust me. I stood there quiet and I started to shut down.

'Answer me! I need to hear it from you! Tell me, tell me now!' Can jumped off the swing and started to grab my shirt. 'Tin...tell me the truth!'

I gripped his hands and yanked them off of me. If he didn't believe me then there was nothing more to say is there?

'Oh, I see.' He backed away, his shoulders falling even more. 'Am I dirty to you again? A dirty thai program kid? If you tell me your side I will believe you! You just have to tell me!'

He didn't trust me. He's lying. If he trusted me, would he even be questioning? This was a mistake. Another mistake on my list that I had made. Without saying anything I turned to walk away. I stopped short when I felt something hard hit me in the back. Turning around, Can stood there his fists clenched at his sides.

'That's it? You will walk away from me? You told me you loved me, I trusted you did. Can't you believe that I love you too and want to listen to your side?! I just want to know what's going on!'

My wall crumbled and I pulled him into a hug. He loved me. He said it himself without me having to say anything first. It had to be the truth. After kissing him for a while, we sat down and I told everything to him.

I explained how my brother treated me when we were younger, and how he tricked me into thinking he cared for me until that day he changed my life. I couldn't look at him when I finally told someone exactly what Tul did to me before I was shipped off. How he tried to do things to me even now.

My eyes stared at the ground. I wasn't nervous or feeling awkward for telling him anything but I didn't want to see the disgust on his face that I was raped by my brother. I continued on and told him how I drank and did drugs. I even told him about how I was set up and now I have to go to classes and counseling for it. I told him how I hadn't went because it was originally a waste of time. I was innocent, but now I could probably say I recently had a problem.

'Since that day you confronted me I haven't drank or took my pills in that manner. The way you looked at me that day made me realize I didn't have to do this to myself. That maybe, being with you was enough.' I got the courage to look up at him.

His face was filled with tears and he hugged me to him hard. 'I knew something wasn't right. I'll protect you Tin. I will!' I laughed and hugged him to me tighter.

I finally found someone worthy to be my other half. Like I told him before, I will never leave him!

In return, Can told me that he was the reason his team almost lost the match tonight. He said that Tul had sent him the messages right before it was time to go on the field. He wanted to go find me but his teammates said they would be mad at him. He had to play the game with a heavy heart. He said in the middle of the game he broke down and had to be subbed. How they all wanted to kick him and in the end still are mad at him.

'It was bad Tin. The way they looked at me when we nearly lost...' His tears flowed again. I pulled him closer. 'Even Techno said that I should think about taking a break from the team. He said that...t-to me!...me... Maybe they are right. I'm not all that.' He sniffed and I used a handkerchief to clean his face.

I didn't really know how to comfort someone crying like this with words or actions so I just did what I felt was right. I took his face in my hands and leaned down towards his mouth. If I kept his mind occupied he wouldn't cry right? (a/n: ok Tin just do what u want to do what's up with these excuses lol)

I first started out with soft kisses. I covered his lips, his eyes, and his cheeks with faint kisses that turned into crushing kisses devouring his mouth and neck. I don't know how he got me to this point no matter the situation. I wanted him.

Grabbing his hand I stood up.

'Call your family and tell them you aren't coming home for the weekend.' I watched as Can's eyes lit up with curiosity and excitement.

'R-really?!' I nodded and watched as he began to call his family. The usual cheerful smile splashed on his face once more.