3:30am; November 22, 1984
Dear Ethan,
I write this as I'm sitting on the rooftop
The rooftop where I told you I loved you
You see
I hate that I'm still hoping that you would write me back since I'm dead to you
I hate how I expect you to go through the pain that I'm going through
But I'm both relieved and sad that you don't have to feel pain
I'm relieved that you're living happily
That you don't cry yourself to sleep every night
But I'm sad that you don't care anymore
I really hope Melanie is treating you right
I'm happy for you
But trust me
I'll find out one day what happened between us
You hated me all of a sudden, how is that possible?
But I love you Ethan
More and more everyday, it terrifies me
No matter what
Anyway, I love you Ethan
Always and forever
~Audrey
