Love Will Take You Places

Its time for the truth

I stared at PawStep in shock, I could feel my heart beating and my mind telling me this was wrong...but I...I loved her, I can feel it. She loves me too, every muscle in my body was screaming "NO!" but, no matter how wrong this was, my heart was telling me that my love matters more. I leaned forward and licked her lips and quietly whispered, "Of course, I'll accept, I've always loved you Paw. Ever since we were pups, I was just too scared to admit it. I'm not scared anymore, they already hate me and I can take whatever they throw at me, I'll be stronger this time...for both of us." Before I knew what was happening we were curled around each other and sound asleep.

I woke up to hear a low growling approaching me and PawStep. I leaped up and saw SkyCloud a few feet away in a lunging position. He was staring right at me and PawStep. PawStep was blinking sleep out of her eyes while I positioned myself in front of her. SkyCloud slowly creeped up to me and stood up until we were nose to nose. "What did I tell you about being near my mate?" he growled at me and I could see the fury in his eyes. I gave out a malicious chuckle, "Your mate?" I kept laughing, "I'm pretty sure you mean my mate," He stared at me with pure hatred. "What're you talking about she's my mate, she's carrying my pups!" "Ever since she got pregnant you've been ignoring her and arguing with her, she told me that she didn't want to be your mate anymore. She told me that she wanted to be my mate," every time I mentioned her being my mate a shiver went through me. "That's disgusting! Two female wolves should NOT be mates!" "At least we actually care about each other! We don't let the death of one wolf get in between us and change how we act!" "What're you gonna do? Kill me just like him? I'd gladly accept the favor." I stared at him in horror, he WANTED to die? "I'm not going to kill you, what I did was an accident, and I admit it was wrong but I do not regret it, because of him I have anxiety and depression. Because of HIM I'm half blind and can't see and because of YOU PawStep decided to take me as a mate because I actually care for her." He stared at me shocked, I'd revealed the secrets I'd kept in my head and just to make him shut up. "I'm leaving the pack, I'm going to live on my own so that I don't have to deal with you excuses of wolves!" then, he turned and walked out into the snow, after a few feet his body was just a blur as his light gray fur blended in with the snow.

I sank down the floor and started crying, I didn't care who could hear me, I needed to let go of all the pain I'd kept bottled up for so long. What if everyone else has the same reaction as he did, what if they think we're disgusting. What if they hate me even more, what if the ones who actually put the murder behind them started to hate me. What if they finally exile me? I felt a warm body press up against me and then the quiet whisper of PawStep's voice, "If they don't like us being mates, then we'll just leave and raise these pups on our own." I shivered, these were my pups now, and I would treat them as if they were. "Ok," I quietly whispered back and licked her ear. We lied in silence for a few minutes until PawStep started licking my tears off my face and whispering, "please don't cry my dear, his opinion doesn't matter, he's just a DeerBrain," I started laughing, I couldn't stop. Through laughs and tears a tried to ask, "Did you seriously just use a curse like that? We haven't said something like that since we were pups!" "That's exactly why I did it, to make you laugh," she smiled and cleaned the rest of my tears.

I was standing in the alpha's speaking area and everyone was surrounding me, Moon was sitting closer than everyone else to show that she was still the leader. "Why is she calling a meeting she's not really the alpha," I heard LilyPad whisper. "I have good and bad news to share with you tonight," I paused, "first the bad news, SkyCloud has left us and decided I become a loner." LilyPad stood up, "So we chose you as an alpha and you can't even last one night without someone running away!" she said mockingly. I sighed and looked my daughter in the eyes, "The way he talked about it, it seemed like he was planning it for a long time," I said as stable as I could even though I was lying. She huffed and sat down. "And now for the good news, I have finally decided to take a new mate!" DreamHeart piped up, "Where is he? Does he not want to meet us?" I took a deep breath and PawStep stood up and walked over to me. She rested her tail on my shoulders. "PawStep is my new mate, I will raise the pups she is carrying as though they were my own." Everyone stared at me shocked, though only a few seemed disgusted.