Love Will Take You Places

It all went wrong

Warning: this chapter deals with some serious issues, read at your own risk!

My ears fell flat as I heard a few growls from my pack. They don't like our relationship. "That's disgusting!" "What is wrong with you two?!" "Gross!" "That's just wrong! This is messing up nature!" And those were just a few of the words I had just heard thrown at me. I felt my eyes start watering and when I looked up I saw that Tree looked uncomfortable with the words he was hearing, what was bothering him? It looked this wasn't just a thing that he was feeling bad about them insulting his mother, it looked like it went deeper than that. I couldn't take it! Everyone seemed to hate me! For what I've done and for what I'm doing now. They were waiting for me to mess up again so they could insult me, get rid off me, just because of my reckless self defense. What if I had just let him kill me? I should have just let him do to me as I had done to him. I don't deserve anything they give me. They treat me better than they should. I dashed off, I could feel the tears rushing now. I tried to run as fast as my short legs would carry me through the thick snow.

I ran up the stream, I know it has to get wider and deeper at some point! I started running at the edge of it trying to find where it grew. I heard the sound of crunching steps behind me and that only made me run faster. I DON'T DESERVE WHAT SHE GIVES ME! I kept saying to myself as I smelt PawStep's scent reach my nose, she was chasing after me. I finally found where the stream runs into a river and expands, or where it would if it wasn't frozen. I ran onto the ice and I kept hearing it creak under me, a few jumps and I could break it. I smelt Moon's scent behind me as well, her and PawStep had stopped at the edge of the ice. I kept sliding but I sunk my claws in with each step and finally steadied myself. I stood on the middle of the ice and panted. "What're you doing?!" I couldn't tell which of them was shouting but I just stood there and the smiled through through my tears. I turned my head and stared at them, why are they worried about me? All I've ever done was mess up their lives. If it wasn't for me, Moon would still have a relationship with MoonLight. PawStep would still have a mate and he would be here. I should've done this so long ago. I started scratching at the ice and could tell it wasn't that thick. I kept hearing them yell for me to stop but I was pushing them out, I didn't care because this is what I deserve, to drown in this ice cold water. I then heard another wolves shouting but...this was a male wolf, they had a weird scent but it was recognizable, I looked up and saw Dusk standing at the edge of the ice as well, along with three smaller figures beside him. They must be Moon's other siblings. I turned back towards the ice and started scratching harder. I could feel I was getting through it quickly. Who hit and it'd crack. I lifted up my front paws like I used to when I hunted fish in winter. I could feel my tears streaming down my face quicker than ever. I was about to slam my paws down until I heard PawStep's sweet voice clearly. "Night, stop please! Please, I love you don't do this!" I froze while standing on my hind legs. No, no...I... , "I DON'T DESERVE THIS!" I howled so loud that the ice shook, I slammed my paws down before I could change my mind. The ice cracked but not enough, I stood back up but before I could slam my paws down again I felt a huge force shove me away. I couldn't see who it was because it was on my blind side, but I didn't  need to see them because the strong scent of dusk washed over me the instant I was hit. I could feel blood coming out of my nose from the force of impact on the ice. "What're you doing?!" I growled when he shoved his head under me and carried me on his back like an injured pup. I wanted to struggle but I was too tired physically and mentally to care.

"WHAT WERE YOU DOING?!" PawStep kept begging me while she lay beside me on the riverbank crying, I'd almost ended my own life all because I don't need their love, sympathy, pity, or anything they gave me. "I don't...deserve this... ," was the only thing I kept whimpering. Eventually they dragged me back to the cave, we let Dusk and his siblings,who I learned were a dark gray female with black spots is Eclipse, and red male wolf similar to PawStep's color was Damian, and a blonde female wolf named Star. They seemed nice enough but I felt like I couldn't trust anyone now.

I woke in the middle of the night to see Tree sneaking out of the small hole in the cave, I had always wondered where he went. I should follow him, just to see if he's hiding something. I slid through the hole and followed his scent trail. I stopped in between some trees when I saw tree with some other wolf just outside the boundaries. But why would he hide this, he knows that he's allowed to date other wolves. He licked the other wolfs muzzle and they nuzzled each other, but why was he hiding his mate? Then, I saw why, the wolf was a male.

That's why he was uncomfortable when the others were saying rude things about me and PawStep, he was like me... but why didn't he tell me? Well, he didn't know about me and PawStep's past together, not until today. I smiled, happy for the first all day. The last pup I needed to have a mate before all them had one, he finally had a mate. I saw the others wolfs ears perk and I started to panic. He turned around and stared right at me; I didn't know what to do so I froze. He started backing away whenever Tree stopped him and soothed him. He waved me over with a flick of his tail. I creeped over slowly scared that he would start yelling. "H-Hey Mom... ," I said nervously whenever I approached. "T-That's you're mom?! Why would you let her come over here?! My dad would kill me if he knew about us!" "But she's just like us, she has a female mate!" I sat down and I could feel my fur growing hot. "If she's gay," so that's what it's called, "Then how did she have you?" "She had a male mate...before he betrayed her. He's not my father, I have two mothers and that's it." I felt tears welling up in my eyes and I stood up and rushed over to him and buried my muzzle into his fur. "I didn't know you felt that way about Paw," he just nodded, "I'll leave you to alone, Goodnight," I licked his ear then turned to his mate, "goodnight too you as well...errr..." "Branch" "Goodnight Branch, treat my son right, ok?" He nodded seeming amazed at how accepting I was. I turned and left them to be alone.

I woke up the next and Tree still wasn't back, normally he was back by now. I stood and left the cave. I headed back towards where I had found him last night but before I could reach it I could hear quiet sobbing. I rushed quickly towards the sound, what had happened?! What I saw terrible. I could feel the blood sinking into my claws, my mind started breaking down. This was the last thing that would push me. My mind was broken, why was I losing everyone? I felt my heart cracking. Tree was splayed out in the grass blood oozing from a deep wound down his stomach. Branch was laying beside him burying his nose into his neck, sobbing. I rushed up my son and buried my muzzle in his fur, he was already cold.

I jumped up and glared at Branch, "WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY SON!" I howled. He looked up and mumbled, "It was my dad he found us, he wanted to make me suffer so he killed him... He didn't want to see me die, he wanted to see me die mentally," he jumped up and nuzzled my neck, "I'm so sorry... ," he stepped back and looked away for a second then looked back at me, "I don't want to be near that monster of a wolf anymore... could I come with you, I'd like to live where Tree grew up." I simply nodded and we started silently walking back towards my territory.