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Chapter 13: Falling Apart

[Warning: Slight explicit content. If you are not comfortable with reading about depression and self harm, do not read. This certain chapter not recommended for children under the age of 10. And actually, if you're under 10, you shouldn't be using Wattpad!]

On Dee's side of the story, she was busy being jealous of the romantic scene that had occurred at Carmen's house just hours ago.

Dee ♡ Cal: But babe how did he even find where she lives (read)

Cal + Dee: I don't know sweetie, can you just let it go? (read)

Dee ♡ Cal: You're not getting the hint, you idiot. (read)

Cal + Dee: Of course I get the group chat member that's pissy all the time even to me (read)

Adelaide: Whatever Calum. (read)

Calum: Why are we doing this? (read)

Adelaide: You mean dating? (read)

Calum: What? No! (read)

Adelaide: Oh, because that's what I was wondering (read)

Calum: Are you suggesting that we break up, adelaide? (read)

Adelaide: What's the point of doing this anyway? Some chick shows up and then magically we all have to date someone? I don't get it. Calum I like you, but I don't think this is real. Internet dating is such a fake. I don't understand how people can love people they've never met (read)

Calum: Adelaide. So you're saying you don't love me? Not just the slightest bit? You know what? I don't want to have to deal with this. You're too much drama for me to handle. Let's split. (read)

Where Dee was reading the words off her screen, she burst to tears. What had she done? She didn't mean anything she had just said, but now, Calum didn't want anything to do with her. Who would, anyway?

She was sitting on the floor of her bathroom, and she didn't know why. But, taking advantage of the setting, she reached up on top of the sink and grabbed a razor. Sharp as a sword.

Perfect.

She had only done this once before, when some bitch at school had told her to go and kill herself. Dee knew how to do it though. Bringing the blade close to her just barely scarred wrist, she thought of all the reasons she was worthless.

Dee began reciting them to herself in a small voice, each reason a new scar on her bloody wrist.

"Fat." Slash

"Ugly." Slash

"Never loved." Slash

"Wreck." Slash

"Slut." Slash

"Skank." Slash

"Rude." Slash

"Worthless." Slash

She continued this string of self hate until she had at least 11 new slashes on her wrist. She snapped a picture of her bloody wrist as she finally replied to Calum.

Adelaide: Great idea. Inspired this one. [one photo attachment] (delivered)

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Sorry I made it sad I'm good at sad stuff just realized that lol omg.

I'm so sowwy it made me cry.

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