✔️STRONG [L.S]

[15]

Theme song for this book is 'Human' by Christina Perri.
Enjoy.X
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{LOUIS' POV}

   *May 24th, 2014 12:02 AM*

   "No...No I'm not okay..." I whispered, burying my face in my hand's. I stayed like that for a moment before lifting my head back up, staring into the camera. I chuckled weakly, licking my chapped lip's.

   "I haven't been for a while actually..." Tear's continued to fall silently down my face, and I didn't even try to wipe them. I took a deep breath before continuing.

   "Thank you for all that you've done for me and the boy's. Thank you for loving me even though I don't love myself. Thank you for telling me that I'm beautiful even though I can clearly see that I'm fat, and ugly. You guy's-" I choked on a sob, squeezing my eye's shut. My head was pounding, and the world around me was spinning.

   "You guy's have always stuck beside me...and I don't think I'll ever understand why."

   "I don't have the strongest voice...I'm fat...ugly....worthless...stupid..." I trailed off, wiping my eye with my thumb. My phone began to buzz beside the laptop. Liam was calling me. I shook my head.

   "I know you boy's are watching this....just don't....just don't try to stop me!" I looked straight at the camera.

   "This is my final goodbye." And with that, I slammed the laptop closed. My phone started to buzz nonstop, but I ignored it, walking out of the bathroom to Harry's bag. I unzipped it. I knew he kept a bottle of pain killer's in here somewhere. I was sobbing as I rotted through the luggage, and I began to hear pounding on the door. I screamed in frustration, dumping the content's of the bag all over the floor. I fell to my knee's, pushing and throwing item's of clothing every way.

   "LOUIS OPEN THE DOOR!!! LET US HELP YOU!!!" I heard Paul yell. 'It's too late to help me now..' I thought. I finally found the bottle, and I grasped it in my hand. My escape. My sweet, sweet escape.

   "LOUIS OPEN THE DOOR OR I'M GOING TO BREAK IT DOWN!!!" He sounded frantic now, and could hear the yell's of other people behind him. I stumbled to the bathroom, locking myself inside once again.

   'I'm only human.'

   I struggled to open the cap on the bottle with my sweaty palm's.

   "Come on.." I muttered, my voice sounding desperate.

                                                        'And I bleed when I fall down..'

The plastic container slipped from my hand's, falling to the floor. I started to sob, gripping my hand's in my hand's.

"WHY CAN'T I DO ANYTHING RIGHT?!!!" I screamed. I heard a loud crash from outside the bathroom, and quickly picked the bottle back up. I heard quick footstep's, followed by pounding on the bathroom door.

"LOUIS PLEASE!!!"

'I'm only human...'

With a final twist of the cap, I opened the bottle, and pill's flew everywhere.

'And I crash and I break down...'

"SOMEONE CALL AN AMBULANCE!!!" Paul shouted, probably hearing the pill's clatter on the floor. The pounding grew louder, and I knew he was trying to break down the door. I fell to my knee's, my shaking hand's trying to gather up the white tablet's. I started shoving them in my mouth, swallowing them dry. Suddenly, a cracking sound was heard, and the door flew open. Paul immediately rushed over to me, grabbing my hand's to stop me from picking up the pill's.