✔️STRONG [L.S]

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{HARRY'S POV}

*December 25th, 2014*

"Shh...You're alright..."

"W-What are you doing here?" I hiccuped, leaning back to look in his bright blue eye's. He cupped my face with his hand's, thumbs swiping quickly at my cheek's, ignoring the tear's falling down his own face.

"I had to see you...Beside's...No one deserve's to be alone on Christmas..." He whispered softly. I reached my trembling arm's out and pulled him onto my lap, cradling him against my chest.

"I love you...I love you...I love you..." I just kept repeating the same thing in his ear, trembling finger's locking themselves in with his.

"But..." I began, brushing the fringe gently from his forehead.

"But what?"

"Why?"

"Harry, why what?"

"Why do you care about me so much..." Louis quickly pushed himself from my lap at my weak whisper. He slowly sank to his knee's in front of me, taking my hand's gently in his.

"Because I am absolutely in love with you Harry Edward Styles...Nothing is ever going to change that..."

"Louis I-

You're a freak. No one will ever love you.'

I cried out angrily, digging the heel's of my hand's into my eye's as I let out a sob. Louis jumped to his feet, gently pulling my hand's from my face.

"Harry what's wrong?!"

"I-I give up...I'm just a crazy, psychotic freak..."

"Ha-"

"NO LOUIS!!!! I HURT YOU!!! BECAUSE I CAN'T CONTROL THIS STUPID FUCKING VOICE IN MY HEAD!!!" I yelled, gripping his shoulder's. I took a deep breath, hand's falling limply to my lap.

"Face it Lou...You can't love me..."

"But that's just it Harry! I do love you! I love you so much it hurt's! Do you really think that if I didn't love you, I would catch a last minute flight to Mullingar, leave without so much as a goodbye to my family- on Christmas of all the days!-just to see you?!"

"But I hurt you..." I whispered.

"Harry I don't care! You just...You need help...And I'm going to be here every step of the way...Why? Because I love you!" Louis grabbed my face in his hand's, pressing a light kiss to my forehead.

'It's all lie's Harry...Are you really going to let him lead you on like that? Make him for it...'

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!" I cried, squeezing my eye's shut as my hand's clenched into tight fist's.

"Harry. Look at me." Louis said sternly, keeping a hold of my face as he pressed out forehead's together.

"I don't want to hurt anyone Louis..." I whimpered.

"LOOK AT ME HARRY!!!" He shouted, pressing our head's together even tighter. I took a deep breath, opening my eye's slowly, only to be met with an almost blinding blue.

"Listen to me." He said, calm now as the finger's holding my head place scratched my hair soothingly.

"The voice inside your head isn't real...Nothing it says is real...But me? I'm real Harry. I'm real, and I love you, and we're going to get through this together." He slowly reached down to grab one of my trembling hand's, placing it gently on his chest. I could feel his heart thumping quickly just underneath my finger's.

"You feel that?"

"Y-yea..."

"That's my love for you...And you know what?"

"What?"

"Whenever you start to doubt reality, just imagine my heart beating for you...beating just under your finger's... Because any world where I don't love you is a world that doesn't exist."

'A few month's later.'

{LOUIS' POV}

*April 22nd, 2015*

"Louis...I'm scared." Harry whispered, burying his face into the crook of my neck. I shushed him, stroking his hair soothingly.

"I'm gonna be there every minute of everyday lovely." I pressed a kiss to his head, and he snuggled closer to me on the small couch.

"Promise?" He mumbled against the skin of my neck, warm breath causing goosebumps to arise. I closed my eye's, resting my cheek on his curl's, "I promise..." The silence of the room was almost comforting to our little moment as we practically melted into each other. I pulled back a bit to glance down at his face. His eye's were closed, eyelashes casting shadow's over his cheek's. I slowly brought my hand up and traced my index finger over his lip's. I laughed quietly as his eyebrow's scrunched up in confusion at the touch, lid's fluttering open as he looked up at me. Just as he opened his mouth to speak, however, the door creaked open and Dr. William stepped into the room.

"Well Harry, it seem's as if all the paperwork has been finished...So, you're free to go!" A smile graced itself over Harry's pretty pink lip's, but I could see the hesitance in his eye's as the doctor shook his hand. I could understand why. I mean, he had been living here for almost a year, the place that had been keeping him stable for all those month's. He was scared that once we left, all the sanity he had achieved would wash from his brain like a switch.

I knew he was scared, and I was trying my best to be strong for him... But on the inside, I was terrified too. This was a chance to start thing's over again... And I was scared that it was all going to fall apart. What if Harry lost control, and I couldn't stop him? What if he drove me back to that insanity...that dark, dark place in my mind where nothing seemed worth holding onto anymore? I shuddered, closing my eye's as I took a deep breath.

"Mr. Tomlinson? Are you alright?" I was snapped out of my thought's by a hand on my shoulder. I flinched back to reality and looked to see Dr. William standing over me. I shook my head, "I...Yea...I'm fine." He gave a forced smile as he handed me his clipboard and pen, "Just sign here." I scrawled my name across the line quickly, handing him his thing's back.

"Well Harry, you are officially released from the hospital. Congratulation's! Now Louis, if Harry want's to go change into some regular cloth's, I'll go over prescription's with you." I nodded to Harry, handing him the plastic bag I had brought with me today with some cloth's I had bought. He took it from my hand and walked to a nearby bathroom.

"He has several medications that he'll need to take daily..."

***

"You ready?" I asked, glancing up at Harry biting his lip. He looked down shyly, "As ready as I'll ever be..." And that was all I needed to push the door's of the building open. I gripped his hand tightly as we walked out into the bright sun, feeling him stiffen next to me. He blinked his eye's rapidly as he tried to adjust to the light, and I watched a small smile grow on his face as a warm breeze blew past. But as his smile grew, so did the water in his eye's. And before I could process what was happening, two tear's were trailing slowly down his cheek's.

"Harry? What's wrong?!" I asked worriedly, gripping his shoulder's as I felt the blood drain from my face. He laughed quietly, which soon turned into tiny sob's, smile still on his face.

"I just..." He began, as I brought a hand up to wipe away his tear's.

"I'm going home...." He finally whispered, so quiet I almost missed it. I smiled weakly at him, tear's filling my own eye's.

"Yea Haz...You're going home..."
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