The Only Reason ➳ l.h

Chapter 13

Recap:

I spoke the words I never wanted to say. Because if I said them, I knew they would be true.

"Mums dead."

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Skylar's POV

"Mums dead."

I felt awful talking about this subject, just thinking about that dreadful night makes me want to break down and cry. Talking about it makes it even worse.

Natalie's eyes pooled with tears, "Your lying, you have to be!"

I kept my gaze on my hands; which were placed on my lap. I shook my head, "I wish I was lying."

I waited for a response but looked up once I realised I wouldn't get one, I saw that Natalie had moved a chair and taken a seat on it, opposite me. She held a unreadable expression, "How, when?" Her voice was shaky.

"It was almost two years ago.."

*Flashback 22 months ago*

I shivered and brought my denim jacket closer to me, it was really cold here in London today. It looked like it would rain soon. I was walking side by side with my mum, we were walking towards her car, we had just finished watching the musical 'Little Shop Of Horrors' and it was amazing! So now we were on our way home.

"So did you have fun today?" She looked down at me smiling, showing off her perfectly straightened teeth.

I nodded my head vigorously. "Yes! That musical was amazing, this day has been amazing. One of my favourite days."

She chuckled in response. "Mine too."

We had finally made it to the car, and just in time to, because it started to rain. A lot. We made simple conversation, talking about anything, mainly what to eat for dinner and whatnot.

"Mum, do you know where the wire is?" I questioned.

"What wire?" She furrowed her eyebrows.

"You know, the wire I use in the car to make my music sound louder." I used my hands to try to explain myself better.

She didn't reply for a while, probably thinking about what on earth I was on about, until she remembered. "Oh, you mean the wire for the speakers so you can plug your phone in?"

"Yeah, that one." I giggled.

She leaned backwards slightly and turned her head to the back of the car and reached for the wire.

It all happened so fast, one second we were on the right lane of the road, and the next we had crashed into another car.

"MUM!" I shouted at the top of my lungs, but it was no use. Everything went black.

I woke up to find that my neck hurt really badly, and that's when it all came back to me. We had crashed. I scanned my surroundings until my eyes landed on my mothers lifeless body. I didn't even stop the tears from falling from my eyes. I tried so hard to get close to her, shake her, anything! But I couldn't move due to my seatbelt and my aching body. Instead all I could do was shout.

"MUM! PLEASE WAKE UP!" My voice came out hoarse, due to all of the crying I had done.

Soon enough I was pulled out the car, I looked around and saw there were two ambulance cars; a small one and a big one. I also saw there was police on the scene. The crash was really bad.

I fidgeted in the mans arms, hoping to get out of his grip. I needed to be with mum. "Let go of me!"

"I'm sorry, but I can't do that. We will get your mother out, it's okay."

Once we had reached the hospital I had fallen asleep on my bed, I woke up to find a doctor in front of me, I also saw my dad sitting on one of the uncomfortable looking chairs.

"Oh my god, Sky! I'm so glad your okay!" My dad ran up to me and engulfed me in a hug.

I pulled away from the hug and turned to the doctor, whose face looked concerned. "Can you please let me go, I need to see my mum."

His face fell.

This can't be good.

"I'm afraid we can't do that."

"And whys that?" I asked, I was started to get irritated. All I wanted to do was see my mum.

"During the drive to the hospital, we found out your mother had lost a lot of blood. We tried everything we coul-"

I cut him off, "What are you saying?"

"She didn't make it to the hospital."

*End of flashback*

By now both Natalie and I were crying, "Its all my fault she's gone, it should have been me." I put my head in my hands and cried even harder.

Natalie quickly rushed towards me, "No! It's not your fault, you couldn't have done anything."

She hugged me.

No matter how many people tell me it's not my fault, I will always feel guilty.